Trigger Warning: Explicit Content. Viewer discretion is advised.

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I grabbed the lavender soap my mom had packed for me and began washing myself up as quickly as I could. I was still uncomfortable with what had occurred earlier. I hated how Axel's comments were at the forefront of my mind. It took all my willpower to not turn around to check if the creep was still looking at me.

Suddenly, I hear a loud splash and laughter following suit. Unable to stop my curiosity, I turned my head around. I was happy to see that Axel was no longer looking at me and came to find out that a couple of the guys were holding a contest against each other, trying to see who could hold their breath the longest.

"Dude, stop. You're going to drown. " One of the guys says to the person with the purple face. The latter person ended up jumping up from where he was holding his breath and taking a deep breath of air, shaking his body around like a wet dog.

Gasp...

"Haha, you're such an idiot."

I was suddenly hit with envy as I watched the other guys play around in the water with each other. If he was born looking normal, he wouldn't have been excluded from any activities and they would never have made any comments on his body. 

Ever since he was young, he had never really gotten along with his packmates. Once his entire generation had turned fourteen, the alphas were all able to go out and hunt on their own with the permission of their parents and the chief. However, whenever they went out to hunt, I would never be invited to go with them, even though I loved hunting as well. It was a trait I had inherited from my alpha father. When I did go, sometimes forcefully, I would be excluded from their conversations. My inner self—my mom called that my wolf—would cry about it, but as I grew up I would no longer hear it cry. It got better when my dad started inviting me to go hunting with him instead. I would consider that part of my life one of my favorite childhood memories.

I submerged myself under the water. The coldness allowed me to remember getting bullied for my small physique and androgynous looks. It was during this time that I would constantly cry to my mother. After my dad found out, he made sure to put an end to the bullying and we ended up cuddling outside after a long run through the forest in their shifted forms while I clung onto my dad's fur. Later on, I hit a major growth spurt, which made me turn into a skinny beanstalk. I became one of the tallest people in the village at 5'11. Unfortunately, the rest of the group ended up being 6' or taller. At this time, everyone had started looking for a mate. There was only one person I wanted, but she had rejected me for not being her type. I talked to Mom about it, and she looked at me thoughtfully before saying that I may just be a late bloomer just like my dad.

Flashback

"Mom... Am I ugly to you?" My sixteen-year-old self questioned her. He pulled at the hem of his shirt, a bit upset.

"What? No honey, you're beautiful. Did someone call you ugly? Why would you think something like that? " She said worriedly, tears beginning to gather in her eyes as her hands went to cover her mouth.

"Is someone bullying you again?" My dad's deep, burly voice rang out from the living room. My mom led me to the couch he was sitting on.

"No...I wasn't bullied or anything. The girl I liked said that she would prefer mating with someone who looked like my dad instead of me. " He said, thinking of Rana.

"Well, some women have different tastes, hun..." My mother said in an attempt to comfort me. She and my father locked eyes with one another, holding a conversation with their eyes.

"Mason ended up presenting as an alpha at twelve and Titus presented at thirteen. I'm already sixteen. When will I present?"

"It's just like what your mother said before; you're just a late bloomer, son. You're as gangly as me when I was a preteen. " He said as his voice almost popped my eardrums.

Flashback End

I lifted my arm out of the water and looked at my arm muscles in disappointment. Genetics could be so brutal. 

'Well, I guess it's time for us to go get ready,' I thought while watching everyone grab their things and go. I was reminiscing for so long that I became one of the last people left inside the river. emaining people and noticed that it was just me and Axel left.

I stood up, wrapped a towel around my lower half, and began walking away with my belongings, making sure to appear normal as I did so. My heart beat as I passed by the alpha. Just as I thought I was in the clear, I found out that he had called out to me. I picked up my pace, ignoring him. This was too dangerous. I had to get away from this situation.

"Where do you think you're going, gorgeous?" was then whispered directly into my left ear. My mind went blank and I turned my head to see Axel leering at me.

He grabbed me and pushed me down onto the pebbled ground.

"You think you could go after you let Maximus have a go at that creamy white a**?" Axel said, breathing down my neck.

"I didn't let anyone have a go; it was done without my consent," I replied indignantly. 'Why would I ever ask someone to do something I was uncomfortable with.' I thought as I tried to struggle out of his grip, but my strength was nowhere near an alpha's strength, especially since I hadn't even presented yet.

It was when he yanked the towel down, exposing my butt, that I realized how serious the situation was. Goosebumps began to form along my body when he began to rub his length along my a**crack. My heart began to beat erratically. I had no idea what to do in this type of situation. I never thought I would end up in this situation in the first place. I was scared.

Only one word was repeating in my mind. 'Help.'

I could hear him breathe right next to my ear. Each shudder he released caused me to feel violently nauseous. I felt dirty even though I had just bathed a few minutes earlier. In my fear-addled mind, I was too afraid to yell out for help. I didn't want to trigger the other into doing anything traumatizing, so I tried my best to stay quiet.

He pulled my hair back, and I let out a grunt of pain. He covered my mouth with his other hand and whispered, "If anyone hears you, I'll r*pe you." The idea paralyzed me. I hated everything that was happening to me.

My anxiety rose uncontrollably and I began to hyperventilate. I berated myself for not acting like an alpha in this situation. The idea made me realize that I should have been instead of allowing it to happen to me, and so I began to struggle. After attempting to escape one more time, I realized the futility and clenched my eyes shut, trying to shut out the world and pretend that I was at home.

My heart beat loudly in my chest.

Against my better wishes, my body began to betray me and I began to feel pleasure under his constant administration. My body flushed from the disgusting pleasure. After all, I was a healthy young male. I cursed at it. Tears welled up in my eyes.

"You like that?" That turns me on even more, you horny b*tch. F*ck... I don't even care anymore-" He says this before grabbing my length and stroking it. I tried to headbutt Axel, but ended up missing. He laughed at my attempt to stop him, and I could feel his length attempt to penetrate me.

I cried. I couldn't hold it in anymore. Tears streamed down my face as I managed to get his hand off my mouth and begged someone to help me.

From a distance, I could hear a deep guttural growl before I felt the pressure on my body lighten considerably. I realized that Axel got tackled off of me... I turn my head and see a gigantic brown and buff-colored wolf. It looked extremely familiar... Was it, Dad? A person came up to my side. They touched my face, and I could hear them crying. The comforting aura reminded me of my mom, I relaxed as she covered me with a warm blanket and helped me up to my feet. My knees were still weak, so I fell after a single step. I looked up, and at the sight of my mom's face, I began to cry. She bent down and gave me a strong hug.

Turning my head, I end up seeing my dad mauling Axel with his sharp teeth. Blood could be seen flying everywhere. When he was done, Axel looked like a corpse, but I could tell he was still alive and breathing. My mom covered my eyes so I could no longer see the graphic image before me, but it was too late. The sight of the bloody figure, along with the disappearance of danger, had caused something to snap within me.

I could hear a comforting growl in my mind before everything went black. I could hear my parents' worried voices in the background before there was nothing.

When I woke up, I found myself blanketed by my parents in their wolf form. I attempted to talk but could only hear a whimper, 'Did I end up shifting?" Why don't I recall any of this happening?' My parents, who were awake the entire time, shifted back into their human form. My mom looked incredibly upset and my dad was seething with anger. I flinched back at seeing him like that. My dad took several deep breaths, noticing my fear.

"When the chief came to our home saying you didn't attend the meeting with the other pack, or even attempt to show up at all afterward,..." My mom couldn't continue at this point. "We asked the other boys where you could have gone. They said, "I don't know." Can you believe it, darling? How could they not know? They were with you just earlier! It's all my fault. I let you go bathe with them in the river. Those children have little to no moral sense. " Tears streamed down her face in guilt.

I nuzzled her face with my nose to show that it was fine and that I was OK. 'She would never have expected this to happen.'

"No, it isn't fine!" She spat out her cheeks, flushed red with anger. "You could've been r*ped! You even went into subspace. Why, oh why did we have to find out this way? " She covered her face and leaned on my dad.

'Subspace?' I tilted my head in confusion.

My dad reached out his hand and gently patted my head, "I should've killed that Axel boy. Instead, I took him to the chief. He's going through pack bond removal at this moment and getting exiled. " My dad said, with barely concealed rage, that it must have been hard to hold it in. His red hair and beard looked like fire.

I shifted back to my human form slowly, getting used to the feeling.

"What's subspace? Is it something bad? "

My dad didn't answer me and just said, "I'm sorry." My mom opened her mouth to say something before my dad stopped her and shook her head.

'Why won't they tell me? Was it that calming feeling when everything turned black? I hope they explain it soon; maybe they thought that it wasn't the right moment to tell me.' He justified it to himself.

"What about meeting with the other pack? Will the chief get angry with me? "

My mother ignored my question. "Don't think about them. You'll see them tomorrow. What is most important right now is you. "

At that, I felt reassured. It took a while for me to go back to sleep as memories of my assault came to haunt me, but each time I had been comforted by both my parents and had eventually gone back to sleep.