"Are you coming or not?" I asked my younger brother, Rei. There was a meteor shower tonight, and I wanted us to see it together. When I asked, I suppose he was half asleep, and he replied with a "yeah, whatever."
I sighed softly as I attempted to shake him awake. He's practically dead to the world when he's asleep... whatever. I'll just see the meteor shower with just me, myself, and I. He'll be mad that he missed it, like when we were supposed to see that lunar eclipse together.
I grabbed my telescope and its tripod, lens cleaner, and all of its extra parts and walked downstairs with them. My dad left them for me, and they've been sitting in a box in my room for far too long. As im descending the stairs, I nearly tripped as my older sister was walking down the stairs, her phone in hand, not even realizing I'm here as she plows through me.
"Watch it! I can't drop my telescope!" I exclaim, grasping everything in my hands for dear life. Only then did Anya realize I'm here.
"Oh, sorry Rory." She muttered, her attention mostly on her phone. She tucked her hair behind her ear and made her way into the living room. I walked outside, needing to set up my telescope before dusk, so i can be prepared. I've already set out a blanket for me and Rei, who's currently MIA. I sighed. I'm the only one who takes an interest in stars now. After my dad died... no one wants to stargaze with me, or watch the meteor showers. My only hope is Rei, but he's always making excuses not to join me.. and when he does does want to either he falls asleep or Mom doesn't let us.
I smile at the memories of me and my dad. When I was eight he took me and Rei, who was six, out to see a meteor shower. My dad was the one who got me into stars and astronomy, and now, according to my family, its all that I ever show interest in. And all I ever do, too.
"Rory, Rei, close your eyes. Both of you." My dad says with a grin. I do. "Now, don't say it out loud, but think of the thing you want most."
"I want friends..." I wish, whispering under my breath ever so quietly.
"Now open your eyes, boys. You both made wishes. And I hope with all my heart that they come true."
And then, a sadder memory, that has implanted into my soul, calls to my attention. Last year... it was just me and Dad. Rei was already in bed. He stays up way too late, and then is really tired. It's a habit he developed after Dad passed...
There was another meteor shower, and we were sitting out in the same spot we always do, and the place I am now. My dad began to cough. He was getting sick. The doctors said he shouldn't be outside in the cold air after dark, but stars were his passion, as it is mine as well. Between coughs and teary eyes. he said "Make a wish, Rory. You know the drill."
"You know Dad, you should listen to the doctors."
"Nonsense, what do they know? Make your wish, Rory."
I closed my eyes, and I made a wish. The last wish with my dad. "I wish my dad would get better.." I whispered this under my breath, barely audible. Sometimes, I wonder if he ever heard my wishes. When I opened my eyes and looked at him, he smiled sadly.
And that was the last time I stargazed with my dad. After that, he was hospitalized, and he wasn't allowed out of his bed. But he broke the rules, and left his bed. He climbed the stairs, and up to the roof, where he died under the stars.
At first, I refused to ever stargaze or have anything to do with them. It was silly, how I resented the stars, and in a way blamed them for his death, but soon enough, it was Rei who convinced me to love the stars again, and even though we bicker and fight, we help each other cope with the loss of last year.
I love meteor showers, but they still carry a little bit of the blame, and sad memories. Well, not sad; they're happy, but missed and honestly painful. For a long time, even as I studied the stars, meteor showers were the one thing I'd refuse to watch. This is actually my first meteor shower viewing since my dad died.
I set everything up and waited. I laid down on the blanket and stared up at the beautiful sky. I missed this feeling. The pain in my heart resides as I see the stars, and I doubt it will ever stop hurting. However, it'd probably be worse if I didn't feel any pain at all.
The meteor shower had started. I closed my eyes, and I wished upon a star. "This isn't much of a wish, but I want to tell my dad something. Maybe, if he's somewhere out among the stars, i could convey this wish to him. I wish I got to say goodbye. I wish I wasn't so adamant about my wish coming true. The last wish I had with you. Thank you Dad. I miss you." I open my eyes, and that's when I heard it.
Have you ever wondered what stars are? Rory has been told all his life about them, and admires them with all his heart. He has plans to be an astronaut one day, and be one with the stars. But once the stars burn and fall, one by one, until nothing is left in the dark sky, he needs to figure out what to do to get the stars back. He goes through a journey of grief and longing, and an endless search of a way to bring the stars back.
(Cover made using Canva. There’s not yet a definite schedule for this story, but soon I’ll get one going, once I get in the groove of it.)
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