Crystal tears…

Foreword.

I'm sorry, you drew me a world and you never got to occupy it, I regret that what is possible between us in the end is impossible, but boy, you have the key to my heart and I know I was wrong, but, ¿what do I do with this sweet madness?, That bittersweet nectar that you call love has me sailing in the sea of ​​oblivion, today I surrender at your feet because you are my greatest attraction, you are my temptation and my greatest downfall, I just want you to know that this farewell now that you are leaving, makes the pain inside me not stop, maybe you should erase my memory and give me the appropriate medicine with this goodbye that I never wanted to see arrive, I don't want what I lived to have been in vain, but it has worn out... and between both of us I don't know how to make you understand that you should be by my side, however, he has already won the first place in your heart, and, ¿how can I compete in a race in which from the beginning I have been disqualified?, I can't, I shouldn't, but I want to, I hope that you stay with the certainty that my footprints will remain on your skin, and even if I get out of your mind, you will not get out of mine…

I already understood that today I have to lose you to bring about your happiness in other arms, in another body and with another person, I have to lose, because I have not learned the rules of the game of love that you have established and have given secretly to him, while I have to decipher which are the wings that I must choose to burn near you, because here I am opening my heart to you, begging for the crumbs of your love, and almost dying of pain when seeing you in his arms…

I will always love you, but this cowardice does not let me see clearly why it is he who has won and I have to lose so that he takes the prize, because I no longer want to be a collector of sad songs and heartbreak, because I want to be the first thing you look at when you wake up and in whom you let your soul rest in the dark night, ¿why can't I give up?, ¿Why does my heart rise like a raging storm every time I see you pass by?, My heart has skipped a beat and it won't stop until you are the one who gives me the poison to put me to sleep in an eternal dream...

Even so, I leave the door open for you, with the lights on just in case you ever remember me and decide to come back.

Here I will be waiting for you until eternity, watching life go by and letting time pass slowly, praying that it doesn't go fast so that you don't have time to forget me, so that at least I can continue to be part of the unconscious memory of your lost memories. 

Honey, I don’t want to let you go, ¿how can I let go of the love of my life, the only man who shines for me just by existing?, I can’t and I don’t want to, so when everything passes and nothing changes, you could be my friend… tonight, I swear that nothing will happen between us, because I’m tired of doing things you don’t like, just be a good friend to me in the dark night of the soul, don’t let me die alone, stay until my heart stops beating, my eyes stop seeing and my lungs can no longer hold air, then I can accept that I have indeed lost and he has won. Honey, stay tonight in silence while the memories hit me with the infinite and invisible force of a soul in pain…