It's close to exams and other things. Ugh...college is so hard.

I haven't had time to see Hidemi really. We just see each other when we come home together since we still...have one key.

We're walking together. I still can't forget about that night. It's been 2 weeks since that happened. Nothing else had happened but...Hidemi just keeps smiling at me whenever I see him or...

...or...when I stare at him....

FUCK.

I can't handle it. AM I GAY?!

THIS DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE!!!

"What are you even doing??" Hidemi looks at me. "Why are you smashing your head on the desk? Are you going to break that, too?"

I turned around and glare at him. "Shut up." I turn back around and went back to writing. My cheeks are red again.

I can hear him climb down the ladder. Footsteps coming closer to me. His...his chest is at my back.

I never realized he was so big...

"You're studying?" He chuckles. "What a goody two-shoes~" He's speaking in english again...

I turned my head to the left to face him, "Wh-What does that-!!"

"Hmm? What is it?"

H-His face is so close to me. ABORT ABORT!!!

I turn myself back into the same position. "N-Nothing..."

He's staring at me. He chuckles. "You're adorable..." His whisper left me stunned. I looked back. Hidemi heads for the door and leaves, leaving the door opened. "I'm gonna get a snack!" He shouts.

Wh-What...just happened...?!

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I went to visit Ken. It's been 5-6 weeks since I last saw him.

"Hey! Hyun Oh~!!!!!" Ken calls for me. "Come on! Let's go get drinks."

"Ken-san, you said we were going to hang out with friends." This is Eri, her square bang hairstyle and square glasses make her look boring...

Ken chuckles. "Aww...but it has been so long since I hung out with Hyun Oh..." Ken tries to make a cute face. He's not cute at all....

Eri stares and looks at me. "Isn't he underage to drink? It isn't fun when some people can't drink..."

I nod in agreement. The fact is, Ken only uses me to go drinking as an excuse.

Ken pouts and sigh, "Fineee...."

We walked. We were going to have dinner with friends. Well, Ken's and Eri's friends.

Ken always talked about Eri, I never met her though. It...seems that he's dating her but at the same time, he's not. It seems that Eri doesn't really have feelings for Ken, but she cares deeply for him.

As we're at the tables, every starts to eat and thanks for the food.

"Hey, you're from Ichinomiya Univeristy, right?" The girl right next to me smiles. She looks like my age. "I know you, I have seen you in class!" She claps her hands together with a smile.

I nod. I do not know her. Never seen her before. Probably because I don't care about the other students.

"So you're korean, right?" She smiles, "It's fine to call you by your first name, right?"

I nod again. I don't want to talk to her. I rather eat my free paid food.

"Hehe, Hyun Oh-chan~"

Don't add chan to my name. I shook my head slightly.

She chuckles. "You're so cute with your cheeks filled up!" She begins to poke my cheek. I duck away before she does more poking.

Every around me laughs. Ken has his arm around Eri, "You both look cute together." Eri says.

The girl smiles with little blushes on her cheek. "R-Really?" She covers her face.

Ken shrugs as we made eye contact.

**Our telepathically conversation**

Ken** "Why doesn't Eri-chan say we're cute together?!"

Me** "She wants to be humble???"

Ken** "HUMBLE?!"

Me** "wHATEVER!! Eri just called us cute and I don't even know this girl!"

Ken** "She's already made the moves by calling you by your first name already..."

Me** "Fuck."

**Telepathically Conversation Ending**

I groaned. Even Ken groans.

"Oh, I didn't tell you my name yet." The girl smiles, "My name is Hoshi Hekima, just call me by my first name!"

"Hekima..." I slowly said. I'm not used to calling anyone by their first name.

Hekima smiles and blushes slightly. "You're so cute~" She places her head on my shoulder. "Do you want to study together sometimes?"

I chew slowly. Too slow. I don't want to say yes to her.

"Hyun Oh?" A voice. I turned to the right. Hidemi?!

Hidemi is holding on to some girl with really...long hair.

Hidemi stares at me. I swallowed, "H-Hidemi?!"

"Ah...I'm sorry if I'm disturbing every here." Hidemi smiles nervously.

"It's fine," Eri speaks. She looks at me, "Hyun Oh, do you want to speak privately with your friend?"

Before I could answer, Hidemi cuts me off. "It's fine." Hidemi looks at me, "Hyun Oh, I might not be home. So, you can go without me." He looks over to the girl he's holding. She looks up at Hidemi then at me.

"Hidemi-kunnnnnnn...." Her eyes, they're drunk. "Let's go, I don't want to bother-" She begins to groan.

Hidemi laughs nervously again, "Err..I'm sorry everyone. We should leave. Come on, Hona-san. You drunk too much. They turn around and begin to walk to the exit.

"Hidemi-kun, you didn't even drink...we were going to have some fun afterward..." The girl, Hona speaks tipsy.

"I'm underage, stop it."

"Hey!" Hekima calls for me. I turn around and look at her. She's pouting, "Who is he?"

I turned back and looked. They were gone. I looked at the food. "He's...he's my roommate."

"Is that why he said he wasn't going to be home?" Eri gets into the conversation. "He's good looking..." She quietly eats while Ken takes his arm off of her. He's pouting now.

Hekima smiles. "Yes, he is. His girlfriend is beautiful though!"

Eri nods, "She is beautiful. More beautiful than me."

Hekima starts to call Eri beautiful even Ken joined in after a while. An argument to show that you're beautiful either way??

After dinner, we went our separate ways. Well not really...

"Can you walk me home?" Hekima grabs my hand.

"Do you live in the girl's dorm area?" I turned towards her.

She blushes. "Oh right...yeah, we both go the same way and...then separate afterward..."

She's...a bit of...well...she's clingy. I nod. I don't want to talk to her.

We're quiet the whole way.

I'm still thinking. What just happened before....? Was that lady...his girlfriend? She looks older than him. Also...she's beautiful. He wasn't going to be home. So...would that mean...?

Really...? Huh...

"Are you okay?" Hekima touches my shoulder. I look over towards her. She has a worried face, "You seem sad..."

I shook my head. "I'm sorry, something is bothering me..."

Hekima looks down and we continue walking.

...

"Ah...well, see you next time, Hyun Oh..." She waves good bye. Her face is worried.

As I go to the right, I can hear her stop.

"Hyun Oh!"

I turned around. She has arms close to her.

"..." I took a step closer, "Yes?"

Her cheeks lightly blush. "C-Can I have your ph-phone number?"

I stare at her. I grab my phone and hand it to her. "You...you can put it in. Give me your phone..." She takes my phone and hands hers to me. We exchange phone numbers.

She waves good bye. We go our separate ways.

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To be honest...I don't know if...I can stop thinking about Hidemi. Does he really have a girlfriend? That girl named Hona...she is beautiful...she seems to be right for Hidemi.

I sighed. I check my phone. I noticed...all this time, I never had Hidemi's phone number. We've been roommates for a long time and...we never exchanged phone numbers.

I closed and took off my glasses. I never noticed that he had a girlfriend, is that why he's not talking to me? Well...he did today but...he's not smiling. Nor laughing as always. And...I'm starting to think he made the mistake by kissing me....even myself, I think I made a mistake by kissing him...

But...it could've been a dream. R...right?

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Hidemi is standing in front of me.

He waves and smiles at me. I smile back. He comes closer to me.

"You...you like me right?"

I shook my head. "No."

He comes closer. "Ya sure?" He's speaking english now...

I took a step back. "N-No, I do not!" I hit the wall.

Fuck.

He 'kae-don' me. Like....like last time...!!!

He leans down, he's close to my cheek. He smirks and chuckles. "Why are you blushing madly?"

I touch my cheek. "You're just seeing things...." I cough and push him away. "G-Go away!"

Suddenly...his lips were on mine. It was if...I could feel his tongue on mine already.

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My eyes open. I-I feel his tongue on mine!!

Hidemi lifts his head away from my face. He chuckles, "Heh? You're awake...how cute...."

"H-H-H-Hidemi?!"

TH-THAT FEELING-!! I-IT'S B-BACK!! THE H-HEAT!!

"Sorry, but...you looked too cute to not kiss." Hidemi licks his lips. "Moaning in your sleep, too? Were you having a wet dream?" He sits down at the edge of the bed. He covers his mouth, "You're adorable."

I blush and sit up. "SH-SHUT UP!!" I push his back to make him fall. He wouldn't budge.

Hidemi laughs and chuckles. "Haha, but you are." He leans close to me as if he was going to kiss my forehead. "Night', Hyun Oh..."

Hidemi gets up and goes to turn off the light. He starts to change in the dark.

"H-H-Hidemi!" I call for his name.

"Hmm? What is it?"

"D-Don't you...h-have a girlfriend?"

Hidemi turns and looks at me. "No, why?"

"Ah...ummm....that...pretty girl..."

"Pretty girl??"

"The one you were carrying...and I thought you were staying at her house," I answered.

...is he cheating on her...?

Hidemi laughs. "Oh my god, you think I'm dating her?" He chuckles. "She's my best friend, pftttt! Haha! I would never date her!"

"B-But she's so...pretty..." I mumbled.

He smiles. "I'll tell her that. To be honest, I don't really care about how others look."

"So...you don't care that she's pretty or not?"

"Technically yes, but when I first met Hona, I thought she was just...normal looking. She looked like the other girls who did or did not wear makeup, etc." Hidemi sighs with a smile. "Though, she is pretty. Not enough to get me to fall for her. Haha, me and her ARE NOT going there...if we did, it would just be awkward..." His voice goes down at the end of his sentence.

I smile, "Haha..."

"Hmm? Whatcha laughing about?" He laughs too.

"The way you said it. You act like the world would end if you both dated..." I laughed more.

Hidemi comes over and sits at the edge of my bed. "Yeah, it would. I mean, she's out of my league and also she's typically like a sister that I wished I had in my life. Haha!"

I smiled.

...why...do I feel so relieved?

"Why are you smiling like that?"Hidemi pokes my cheek.

I blushed more. "N-Nothing...." I laid back down. "G-Good n-night..."

"Hmph, night' moaner." He leaves my bed and goes up to his bed.

Oh. My. Fucking. God.

What. Did. He Say.

I groaned loudly. Hidemi laughs at me.

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By morning, I've been thinking about that kiss.

Wasn't it a french kiss? Yeah...tongue...a-action...

I smashed my head down on the desk. Hidemi comes into the room, back from the dorm's kitchen.

"Did you just smash your head again?" Hidemi laughs at me. "How many times are you going to smash your head?"

"Shut up..." I pout. I began to write again.

He puts a japanese soda brand on the desk. "Take it."

I looked at it. Even though I lived in Japan all my life, I never had a chance to drink this.

Maybe because mom never allowed me to drink sugary liquids...

I try to open it.

...how the hell do you open this?

Hidemi burst out into laughter. "PPFFTTTTT HAHAHAHA!! What are you doing?!" He holds his stomach.

"Sh-Shut up...." I pouted and began to blush.

"Here, give it to me." He takes it. I didn't even give it to him....

Magic appeared. Somehow he opened it.

"Th-Thank you...." I'm embarrassed that I couldn't even open it. Man...this sucks. I drink out of it. I look at the brand name. "It's...it's good."

Hidemi smirks. "Look at that face." He pinches my cheek.

"Gah?!"

"Pft! Why so grumpy~?" He laughs.

I pout more.

We stay quiet for a while.

He burst out into laughter again. "Awkward~~~"

I hit his shoulder. "Stop making it awkward!"

"Pftt-hahahah!!"

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I finally got done with class. As I get to the exit of the classroom, I get a text.

[Hey!] -Hoshi Hekima

I text back...

[Hi...] -Kim Hyun Oh

[Do you have time for a meet up?] -Hoshi Hekima

[Where do you want to meet?] -Kim Hyun Oh

[The plaza, see you there!] -Hoshi Hekima

...where is the plaza???

[We have a plaza?] -Kim Hyun Oh

[Lol! Yeah we do. I'll just come find you! Which class are you in now?] -Hoshi Hekima

[Language class...] -Kim Hyun Oh

[Which one?] -Hoshi Hekima

[Korean.] -Kim Hyun Oh

[Roger! I'll be there now!] -Hoshi Hekima

"Hyun Oh-chan!!"

I turned to my left. Please do not shout or add 'chan' to my name....

...

The plaza...it's amazing.

Too bad it's raining.

"Hah...I didn't even know it was...raining..." Hekima laughs nervously.

"Me too." I sigh and leaned on my hand.

"Umm...so..." She looks down at her hands at her lap. "I want to know you more...so..."

I looked at her. Eye contact.

"I-I...I want to know if you have a girlfriend!"

Everyone. Stares.

Oh. My. God.

I covered my eyes. She covers her face. "I-I'm so sorry..."

"It's fine..." I sigh.

"I-I'm really sorry for annoying you..."

"It's fine...."

"I'm really really really sorry!!"

"It's. Fine." I'm really embarrassed and annoyed.