"So what happened was, you guys were in the room doing whatever the hell you were doing. I decided to leave just to take a walk around. There were some weird girls that were like obsessed with me and wouldn't leave me alone, so when I reached the staircase uh I guess some were just like... I don't know... not expecting it and fell. And then the others were holding on to my arms and to fix this problem I shook my arms and they also fell."

I stopped for a second and chuckled a bit. That got a really weird look from James and Charlie.

"And after that I left the hotel and started walking down the streets. I felt like I was being watched so Iran for awhile till the feeling was gone. When I stopped running I had ended up outside a shop called 'we sell things' and went in. They really weren't kidding when they say they sell EVERYTHING." I told them. "I looked around the shop for a while and found that book." I pointed to the big pirate book on the floor infront of us. 

"I went to the checkout and the CUTEST boy was the cashier. I read his name badge and said 'hi Sam' but he made it really clear we'll actually he stuttered a bit but anyway he told me that his name was actually Xa-" I choked up at his name from hurt.

"Hey Al take a breather man. We can't have ya suffocating on us can we?"

We all laughed together and yet again it gave me some comfort and gave me the courage to keep going.

" his name was Xander and he also told me his shift ended in 5 minutes and he'd have to pack up. Obviously I offered to help and he agreed happily. No one else came in and so we started to pack up. We moved the shelves to the walls and put stuff in the most random places until it all looked neat and tidy. As I put away some dog treats onto a shelf as the last thing till we were finished I heard Xander creep up behind me, tap me on the shoulder and scream 'TAG!' and then run off. I took this as a personal challenge." 

"Oh trying to play ya how tipical!" James said as he rolled his eyes.

"Haha yeah... uh ANYWAYS! I ran after him and we just went back and forth playing tag. It was so good, it was like playing when you were 5. No care in the world."

"Okay that sounds so much fun why are you crying?" 

"BECAUSE CHARLIE IM NOT FINISHED YET!" He jumped back a bit then smiled a bit. 

"Okay so it was super fun and the only reason we stopped was because we both fell into a rack of school supplies and landed on each other as scissors and pencils fell on us." I was getting really excited telling the story back but I knew I was gonna cry soon. "He even ran his had up my side and under my shirt then to cover it up I guess... he said he was checking if I got cut."

"He stood up and held out his arm to help me. I grabbed it and he pulled me up. When we were both standing I noticed our faces like this far apart!" I showed the about 2-3cm with my fingers.

 "We kept playing outside and then he said he wanted me to meeet someone. We walked down a couple roads and he took me inside. He told me he wanted me to meet his brother Sam and his..." I stopped cuz I knew this bit was gonna hurt like fucking hell. "And his-his-hi- AND HIS GIRLFRIEND!" 

I watched as James and Charlie's smiles were wiped right off their faces. "She kissed him on the cheek and then offered me a cookie I took the smallest one then bolted out I can't remember exactly what they said but- but it was like 'come back soon!" 

I kinda just re-broke down on the floor in some old Inn with my brother and his most likely boyfriend hugging me as I told them about my shitty love life. Tears streamed down my face like a river and before long my clothes were wet. I kept choking up everytime I tried to talk and I'm pretty sure I cried myself to sleep on the floor with the boys right next to me. 

"Why me? Why me James why?"