Erik sits with a hunched back in the back room of the shop, the
weak light from the workbench casting trembling shadows on the walls.
A clean surgical mask wraps around his fragile features like a tight
band, trying to hide the disfigurement underneath. In it lives the
cold, gray breath of memory, the feeling of abandonment, a trace of
Christine's mother. Christine had found the masks in the attic, along
with Gustave's worn clothes. The memory of a slow death echoes
through the house again and again.
The musty, stale smell that had
filled the back room until recently has been replaced by a soft,
floral scent. The expensive fabric softener and the cheap bath
products have made their mark. As if, little by little, life is
finding its way back into this small, inconspicuous house.
And
even in the punk, however bleak it may seem, something glimmers.
Erik's hair, which used to stick to him greasy and dull, now stands
up fluffy and shiny from his head. He wears Gustave's old clothes –
a shapeless checkered shirt that flutters around his body like a
tent, and jeans that sag around his legs. In the right size, he would
barely be distinguishable from a "normal" person. But in
these oversized clothes, he looks like a clown.
Despite everything he has already experienced here, Erik doesn't feel like a human – more like a foreign body in this new world.
A broken, helpless drop drifting on the waves of life.
There he sits now, hunched over on a small stool, his thin fingers
wrapped around a violin, desperately pulling at its string. Gustave,
sitting calmly behind him and looking over his shoulder, had offered
him the chance to learn the art of violin-making. Maybe he did it as
a gesture of compassion, maybe from some inexplicable urge to give
the lost punk some hope. The violin maker speaks for the first time
into the silence.
"Are you musical type?"
Erik
doesn't look up, his thin hand tightening as he threads the string
through the small hole in the peg. "No, sir," he murmurs
quietly. His hands tremble, but he straightens his back and lifts
himself a little, pulling the string through the small hole with a
jerk. "Done!" he says, a note of pride in his voice.
"But
I heard you sing, in the city," Gustave says, sounding almost…
surprised? "You're good!"
"I... well... it's
nothing special," Erik mumbles hastily. He turns the peg, only
feeling the uncomfortable tingling in his fingertips. It's as if the
music lives somewhere inside him – but it cannot reach
him.
"Singing in the city, in front of an audience...
that's... nothing special."
"Ah, so-so," grumbles
the old man, amused.
Gustave leans forward, gently takes Erik's
hand, and holds it firmly. The young man wants to turn away, pull his
hand back, but the grip is calm and determined. Gustave shows him how
to guide the hand on the peg. "Gentle," he says in a calm,
fatherly voice. "You're impatient. If you turn it slower, you
will find the feel for the music that is still hiding."
The
old man, tall and strong, is almost leaning over Erik like a giant
shadow, taking away his breath. Erik feels small, overwhelmed – as
if all the shame inside him, the restlessness in the air, could tear
him apart.
"Better," murmurs Gustave, a proud grin
sneaking across his face, then he straightens up. "Ah, my
back... always a problem," he says, as he presses his hands
against his lower back, and a dull crack is heard.
"I think
you have talent..." Gustave begins, but his words are cut off as
a noise from the shop rings out. The sound of the shop doorbell,
which echoes in Erik’s ears like a scream.
"Stay seated and
keep going," says Gustave casually, and shuffles out of the
workshop. Erik, who looks after him, lowers his head. A grim silence
falls over the room as he refocuses on the violin.
Talent?
He had only tightened a string. What was so talented about that? What was special about it? No one had ever believed in him.
A deformed nobody.
Maybe he sang once in a while, when the other punks gathered at
the station and strummed their guitars. But what was that compared to
what the world understood as talent?
He places the violin on the
workbench and reaches for the teacup. Thoughtfully, he turns the cup
in his hands, the hot mint tea steaming and smelling good – so
peaceful. Then he pulls the mask down under his chin to take a sip.
No one will ever truly see him as talented. No one, except maybe
Gustave.
And that was the worst part.
That damned kindness.
Voices come from the shop area. Gustave steps into the back room,
his gaze briefly fixed on Erik's disfigured face, then the old man
smiles gently. Erik quickly pulls the mask back up.
"So-"
"I
have special customer. A policeman," says Gustave casually,
searching for a packed violin from the pickup shelf. Erik jumps off
the stool, sets the cup he was holding aside. Gustave’s smile
breaks. This reaction is a clear signal.
"Wait here,"
says the old man, and leaves again.
Desperately, Erik grabs Sasha and hastily lifts her up, rushing to
the window.
Maybe he could escape.
Maybe he could just…
disappear through the window. The height wasn’t too great, maybe he
would only sprain his foot if he was unlucky, maybe worse.
But
behind him, Gustave’s calm but firm voice sounds.
"You are
not a bird. If you want to leave, go through the door."
Erik
spins around. Gustave stands calmly and confidently, his arms crossed
in front of his chest as if he were the rock on which everything else
rebounds.
"Sit down, Pojke," he commands, "Tell
me."
It’s over. The charade has come to an end. Erik knows
it. And Gustave knows it too. The lies he has told himself, the
excuses he has stumbled through life with, are gradually
crumbling.
"I was hungry," Erik begins, his voice
breaking as he spits out the words. "I’m not good at begging.
But in the trash bins... in the trash bins, there's less and less
food. So..." He falters, the pain unbearable.
What should he have done?
What could he have done?
"I was just hungry..." he whispers, the words like a
pray. "I was hungry."
"And you got caught?"
Gustave asks gently, almost cautiously.
"Yes," Erik
murmurs, "but I managed to escape..."
"When?"
"Yesterday..."
The
old man rubs his temples, then his eyes. "Did you take anything
here as well?"
"NO!" The panic tears through his
voice. "I would never..."
"I believe you,"
says Gustave as he raises his hand to calm Erik. "Violins aren’t
edible," he adds with a gruff grin. Then he disappears from the
workshop.
Erik is left frozen, his shoulders twitching from
anxiety.
The violin maker is gone again – will he come back with the policeman?
Shortly after, he returns, a plate with a sandwich on it. It’s
such a simple gesture, so unimaginably simple, that Erik finds no
words. Gustave places the sandwich on the workbench.
"Eat."
The depth of his voice thunders through the room, and Erik flinches.
But he obeys. Slowly, as if he needs to give himself permission to
live, he reaches for the sandwich. The smell of fresh tomatoes, soft
bread, and tangy cheese fills the air, and for the first time in a
long time, something feels really good.
Each bite is a painful smile he absorbs within himself.
It tastes so different. So much better
than anything he’s ever known. Tonight, he won’t have stomach
pains from spoiled food or lie awake hungry. "You’ll work
off your debts here," Gustave says firmly. "I expect you to
show up on time. To drink tea and eat lunch. No criminal activities
outside the shop. You will work off your violin values. So
behave."
"Yes, sir," says Erik softly, as always,
as if he has no other choice.
"And don't call me Sir!"
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