– ¿Alex? – I suddenly heard.

I looked up slowly and met John's blue eyes.

His smile turned into a frown, and then a look of concern.

– ¿Are... you ok? – He asked when seeing my face.

He sat next to me, leaning to the front to see me better. 

I felt him put his hand on mine and I looked down at it, but I didn't react, so he began to rub my hand with his ring finger as a comfort.

His pheromones were too faint. I had spent so much time with him that I felt comfortable around them, and they even calmed me down in some way. I lean towards him and rest my head on his chest, filling myself with his now familiar scent.

I could feel him tense as soon as I did it, but then he relaxed. He put his arm around me and kept it there. His smell and warmth comforted me, so I closed my eyes.

It was all over for good, and my heart ached almost like the first time everything had broken.

A great and wonderful part of my life was coming to an end, and I had been preparing for this since what happened, but it still hurt.

I felt drowsy.

I raised my arms and put them around his back, hugging him. I wanted to feel more comforted. His pheromones were closer and more concentrated in this position, which helped me relax. It was like when his mother comforted me, but somehow it worked better with him.

He rested his head on mine, rubbing my back.

After a long while, I sat up a little embarrassed for seeking comfort in him, considering we were not that close yet, but at the same time, he was one of the few people I had by my side now. 

– I'm sorry. – I said with my hands resting on my knees, stretching out my arms that had gone numb.

– Don't worry. – He replied with a sweet voice.

I took a deep breath and looked up at the sky.

It was cloudy and didn't help with my mood at all, so I sighed.

My body felt heavy, my eyes were swollen, and I was tired. It was still early, but I was already in this state.

I felt John run a finger down my cheek, probably wiping away the remains of a tear. 

My eyes went to him, earning a smile from him.

– You look like a panda, only instead of black, it's all red. – He proclaimed, trying to cheer me up.

I groaned and rubbed my eyes.

– No, no. – John took my hands, pushing them aside. – They will swell up even more and you will have frog eyes. – He chuckled. – Although you still look cute.

I stared at him.

– Ah, Sorry. – He smiled somewhat embarrassedly and looked away. It seemed like he had said it without even thinking about it.

He released his grip and lowered his hands, squeezing them lightly. I did the same out of reflex and felt a slight pressure on one of them, so I looked down at my hand. There was the key to our house.

Old house.

I petted it for a few seconds and put it in my jacket pocket, turning back to John. I still wanted to go back to the hotel and get more depressed, but he had comforted me, so I should accompany him at least for a while.

– So, what are we going to look at designs for? – I asked, trying to sound cheerful and forcing myself to smile.

He looked at me for a second.

– I'll take you home for today. – He stated. – Well, hotel. 

He smiled sweetly, gently brushing a strand of my hair away.

I looked down and just nodded.

When we stood up, John gave me a small, gentle push to sit back down.

– Wait here for a second, I'll be right back.

And without further ado, he ran off somewhere. When he came back, he had a bottle of water in his hands.

– You must be thirsty. – He said with a smile.

I gave him a weak smile and thanked him for the drink. 

On our way back to the hotel we passed by the laundry, which reminded me of his jacket.

– John, I'll give you your jacket tomorrow, okay? It's in the laundry right now, so... 

– Oh. – He glanced at my new jacket and smiled. – It’s okay. By the way, it looks good on you.

I tried to smile at him.

I looked down and we continued to the hotel. When we arrived, I turned around to say goodbye, suddenly feeling his hand on my head. 

– That's it. Everything will be okay.

I stood still at his sudden touch and attempt at comfort, just like his mother had done long ago.

I looked up at him and he had a smile on his face, but it didn't reach his eyes. I saw only concern in them. He kept his eyes on my head, so he didn't notice me staring at him.

When he noticed, he lowered his hand and cleared his throat.

– Come in now. –  He gave me a little push towards the door to get me in.

– See you. – I said goodbye, entering.

Already in the room, I threw myself on the bed and covered my eyes with my arms.

Today, I had faced reality.

Matt had an omega carrying his child in her womb, and he was going to move to South Korea to have his entire family there.

A lump formed in my throat, but I managed not to cry anymore.

Five months had passed and I had only seen him once, and now that I had seen him again, it was as if time had never passed.

His arms around me still felt fresh, even though I had hugged John later. His eyes staring at me and those pained expressions were not leaving my mind.

I didn't feel able to forget him.

I still felt like he was my alpha. As much as I had an excuse to hate him and hold on to it, I couldn't. The last conversation had made it clear to me that I loved him and he loved me, but ours just couldn't be.

He had been with me through the best and worst moments of my life, and now that I knew he was suffering and blaming himself for everything, I couldn't do anything for him.

There had to be something. 

Suddenly, a thought came to my mind. 

Maybe, there was a way to do something.

I could just belong to him forever.

Perhaps, my destiny had always been to remain alone, belonging to him from afar.

That way, I wouldn't have to suffer anymore or fear that fate would play with me again like it had.

I wouldn't worry about that anymore, because I would only live on my memories with Matt.

So, I decided to promise him something.

That I would be his omega forever, even if wasn't here.

As soon as I decided that, I felt like a weight had fallen off my back, but at the same time, another one had taken over that place.

I leaned over to the nightstand and pulled out his jacket. I curled up next to it and felt myself slowly falling asleep.