The evening before baby left she told us that tomorrow she would be testing me. I was nervous based on her previous methods with Micah. Not quite sure if I was cut out for this. At least Micah and Kaysi stood a chance because they already had way-maker abilities. 

I learned a couple of protection chants to help me when we were faced with enemies. Yet so far there haven't been any demons out only but a few since the last couple of months. After learning about waymakers. 

Honestly, I'm more than a burdensome it seems I am just a spectator. 

I want to be able to help out more often. Also, I can't help but feel my lack of skills makes me a burden on everybody. I don't want to just be in the way or watching from the sidelines. I do want to be a part of the action as well. 

For me, it's not an attempt for attention or fame from people. I genuinely want to help my friends out. Ever since Kaysi came along and saved me I can't help but feel helpless sometimes. Baby told me in the hospital after Kaysi got hurt that I'd be putting myself in harm's Way as well as my friends if I didn't learn to protect myself. 

The next morning Kaysi and I grouped up and headed over to Micah's house as we did on a regular school day. We headed back to that special secret location and passed through the shrine into the entrance of the mountain once more. 

At first, I didn't see Baby she jumped out and scared us. Trying to prove a point for us to be on our toes and to keep up our guard. 

"Today, I would like to take the opportunity for you girls how it is to be a way maker. Beck, I know that you have no official skills much less a weapon of your own; I want to work on that."

"However, Right now it might be wiser to teach you more protection as well as some healing."

"I want to do more than protect and heal people. I want to be a part of the fight from time to time too. Wasn't it you who told me that I'd be a burden to myself and others if I didn't figure out a way to contribute?" 

"Certainly, I told you to protect yourself, to contribute rather than protecting yourself for others still gives us a bit of an advantage. That others don't have. Don't be ashamed of your shortcomings. In due time you will have what you need."

"At every step, I can help you start with gaining knowledge. We can start by asking questions or I can just give you a step-by-step. Is there anything you'd like to ask or add?" 

"Actually yes, before I heard you speak about something happening to the other way makers what did you mean by that?" 

'Well as you know way makers are paired with guardians to help guide them until they have reached a more independent level. Not every way maker continues their journey with the guardian at their side at all times." 

"As in the case with Micah, some of them are discharged because they were unable to fulfill their role or position. Not all the time is it the Guardian's fault as well, sometimes it's just not a good partnership." 

"Also as guardians sometimes things happen to the way makers as you all are human and unfortunately. Someone can get killed or executed. In the other cases where they get possessed and another way maker had to make a call for the greater good." 

"Oh, that's right, I remember you saying something about how Micah, could have been killed. If it was anybody else in different circumstances that found her." 

"Yes, unfortunately, there have been times when the waymaker has been killed by another waymaker and even their guardian if they were unable to resume control. That is sometimes the circumstance of being human."

"You saying that, I'm guessing a guardian cannot be possessed. No, most certainly not we're higher beings and do not possess the fleshly vessel that can be manipulated. Which is part of the reason why I can take many forms as a guardian angel." 

"Okay, so what would be the best role for me to fulfill currently?" I asked her.

"You would act more or less in your allies' favor. Every team is made up of individuals who individually bring specific talents to the table and use those talents to support their teammates. Their duties range from guarding humans to slaying demons. That could entail self-defense. 

"Did you see when Micah put up a barrier there were different shapes and forms that she was able to compose her barrier into? As well as even being able to use it in somewhat of a weapon-like fashion." 

"Yes, I did see that. I did learn from some of those battles as well as the ability to manifest a barrier to fit the needs of different circumstances of a situation."

"Yes, that is the purpose and part of the training that I'm doing with all of you ladies. This training is for you to learn from one another and yourself hopefully better as I've said before." 

"So to give you a bit of a breakdown what fully is a way maker job? You guys have been divinely selected to protect humanity from the supernatural Realm. Most cases being demons are uncertainly rare cases protecting them from those that do the bidding of harm to others."

"I will give you a history of what is a way maker and how they came to be. Once before the Earth was being formed and the heavens were split into three separate planes. There lived the God and His angels. One angel lucifer Morningstar decided that he wanted to control the power of the heavens and the creator's creation. He obsessed over it and wanted it as his own to be able to rule over it." 

"When he rebelled against God he was cast out from the central heaven with two-thirds of the angels that betrayed God and followed him in the war."

"After the war when Earth was fully formed he was cast down to live in the abyss. Unable to return to upper heaven. He was only able to communicate with the humans and the Nephilim in other words Fallen Angels." 

"He told them that if he was unable to rule over heaven and creation. That he would devise a plan to control creation and create his own. He told his fallen angels to go forth and breed with God's creation in any way possible willing or not." 

"This created humanlike beings with supernatural gifts resembling them to be like Gods. The humans came to even worship them as different idols that took different forms of creation. They are known as demigods. Demigod's children were known as giants that roamed the earth. Their acts also gave birth to new demons."

"The sins of the Fallen men caused bloodlines that were no longer pure and all humanity was almost wiped out. Partially by our own doing; as well as the chaos from the demigods. They waged Wars amongst each other after creating their religions or cultic followers. They were fighting to see who was the most Superior and maybe one day be able to overthrow God." 

"At last, God saw this and sought to try and save humanity with the last pure-blooded that at least still had a divine connection with their lord. This man and his family took to a large vessel that they created by the divine direction of their God."

"The Earth was flooded to destroy all the demigods and their children. This gave humanity a new start and he vowed to never destroy his creation and that manner again. God then put up a veil but no longer allowed angels demons and humans to coincide together much less procreate. The veil gave Humanity a new chance of purity. The human's new mission on Earth was to be a test before becoming an angel."

"God was saddened by the fall of his angels and creation so human vessels are a trial before arriving in heaven so that way we could keep the peace beyond earth itself. No more Wars would go on in heaven. God's pure lasting angels would go on to serve different roles in creation including being a guardian to a waymaker."

"Waymakers are divinely appointed soldiers of the Kingdom of Heaven saving mankind from day to day until called up from Earth in the spiritual plane between outer heaven and Hell."

"What do you mean when you say Heavens and Outer Heaven?" I asked.

"Central heaven holds God's throne and his city of angels. Middle heaven is space it is the Veil that stops humans from entering paradise this is why humans are obsessed with space travel and want to go beyond our Earth. The Third heaven, outer heaven is Earth's atmosphere it is the air we breathe as well as the realm the spiritual can resign." 

"I must guide you until you are at a point where you no longer need me. That is when I will have fulfilled my duty. Although, I'm not allowed to intervene much. You have to be able to grow on your own and that means learning facing consequences and overcoming them."

"I understand I just wish I had more options. Like a weapon to handle some of the battles.  In the meantime, I would do my best to learn and grow with a better understanding."

 

"I want you to do training here as well as outside and on your own. I want you to grow both my mind and body. Start by using meditation as well as endurance training to strengthen your overall body. I can show you how to engineer your barriers to suit as weapons for the time being."

"All of you, follow me to the river in the far back corner."

"Wait there's even a river inside of here? This place is bigger than what I could fathom."

"Yes, it's just simply beyond the trees that's why you're unable to see it from here. Most of your training will happen here for your protection. Start by using spiritual energy around your feet creating a barrier between you and the water. Once you have mastered that I can show you the next step. You must have to get that down first to develop a strong enough barrier between you and your body."

As you saw with Micah there was not enough time for her barrier as it was not sufficient causing her to be harmed. Believe it or not, I held back or she could have been injured much more. 

In the river, I practiced this technique many times until it was time to head home. Even after all that time I still was not able to complete the task. No matter how many times I tried to walk on the water, any form that I put into the barrier just dissipated. 

I went home soaked and defeated. I felt ashamed. I don't know if I can ever complete this task. Oh, how I long to not be a burden and to be able to protect my friends. I won't I can't give up I must not. I just don't know how I'm going to figure this out.