5-The first days of summer

Carson's pov

It's been a day since I came back from the school trip, so this means day 2 of summer break.

Unlike usual I'm not as happy as I usually am when summer starts and it kinda sucks.

I was so happy and excited just last week but now I'm a bit down and yes, it's mostly linked to Emerick.

After Cayden rudely made me realize that I made a horrible mistake, I now feel quite guilty.

I made Emerick mad at me because of my dumb choices as my brother suggests.

It makes me so sad that I wasted my only chance to rekindle a friendship with Emerick because of my stupid crush on him.

Maybe I didn't know why Emerick hated me before but now he certainly has a reason...And that's all because I kissed him...

And now it's summer and I have no way to contact him...

I feel so stupid! I shouldn't have kissed him like that!

I regret it so much now...even if it makes me still giddy at the thought of it.

But even if I'm giddy I can't help but think that I'm...

"Carson, are you ok?" Someone suddenly asks and I violently flinch as I get snapped out of my thoughts.

I lift my head and notice it's my papa, I release a breath of relief.

"Yes, I'm fine..." I say but my papa's face softens.

"Are you sure? I've noticed you haven't been in a good mood since you came back yesterday from the school trip. If there's anything that happened that trip...you can trust me, I'll listen." My papa asks concerned and that brings back the sad thoughts.

Usually, I tell everything to my papa, but Cayden thinks I'm stupid and maybe Papa will too...

My papa looks at me concerned and I hate so much that look, that I can't help but end that look on his face.

"I made a stupid mistake..." I confess sadly and my papa looks at me worried.

"What do you mean...?" He asks worried but uncertain and I look up to him sadly.

"I kissed someone and...now they're mad at me...Am I bad at love papa...? Am...I stupid?" I ask with a heartbreaking voice and his eyes widen worry evident.

"Oh, Carson don't say that. I hate hearing you say that. You're not even 16 yet, it's normal that you make mistakes. I'm sure your dad would agree." My papa says concernedly.

"But papa...Cayden he has a girlfriend and he has no problem, but why is it not working for me...?" I say with a broken voice filled with water in my eyes. My papa's eyes widen in a worried panic.

"Carson you know that comparing yourself to Cayden is not fair. Cayden has always been doing everything young, he's kind of wild I admit and your dad and I have understood that
he's eager to experience things young. Your brother wanting so doesn't mean it's representative of all teenagers. There's plenty of teens your age that have not gotten a serious relationship yet or first kiss yet." My papa says calmly.

"But Papa it's not only Cayden, everyone's first kiss went well and then there's me..." I say sadly.

"Oh Carson, I know it may seem like it but I'm sure there's plenty your age that their first kiss didn't go well and they just won't tell you. Ask Cayden, I'm sure his is not as perfect as you may think." My papa says peacefully.

"But Cayden said his was perfect!" I argue back and my papa smiles softly.

"Well, that's what he makes you think." He says smiling softly as if remembering something funny.

"Papa! Why are you smiling like that? What did he do?!" I ask suddenly curious.

"Ah, not my place to say. You can ask him instead." He says smiling.

"Ugh, no fair!" I say disappointed and my papa's smile returns to a concerned look.

"Anyway, do not worry too much about it, it's not one kiss that dictates your path into romance, I know that much." He says smiling faintly as if remembering something.

"Wait, papa what do you mean by that?" I ask suddenly confused and curious, all sadness left the window.

"It's nothing much." He says suddenly becoming serious.

"No! Papa, please tell me!" I beg knowing this is him closing off on his private life.

"It's not that interesting what I was thinking about." He says a bit more coldly and I accept it as him not wanting to tell me.

"Oh ok, sorry for asking..." I say feeling bad and my papa's eyes widen.

"Oh Carson you're such a sweet boy but you do need to be sorry for that." My dad says smiling softly.

"I know but I can't help it," I say smiling lightly and he smiles too.

He comes closer to me and he opens his arms and I take it as a sign to hug him.

I wrap my arms around him and he hugs me back.

But then we get interrupted.

"Hey, what's going on here? Why are you two hugging? Did I miss anything...?" My dad says coming by the kitchen door from outside.

We stop hugging each other.

"It's nothing much, just papa and son time." My papa smiles softly and I smile too, but my dad glares slightly.

"Ah huh," He nods his head knowingly.

I think Dad is jealous of us and that's fun, too bad he never admits it.

My papa goes back to the kitchen counters and starts making food all the while my two dads are still smiling at each other. What's going on?

"Oh well, I'll continue working on the renovations near the pool, tell me when's dinner ready." He smiles and then he goes outside.

I like it when my parents get along because sometimes they don't always but it's understandable considering their past.

As for me, I feel a lot more better. Yes, I'm still sad but maybe Papa is right. I shouldn't be so sad or worry so much about it. It's rather Cayden that has some explanation to do once he comes back.

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Emerick's pov

Those past few hours I've been waiting to find a way to talk to my mom but she's been busy with my siblings, but finally, they're now all asleep.

"Mamà, I've got something in mind and I need to know if you approve." She turns to me surprised by my question but her face softens.

"Yes, what is it, Emerick?" She asks.

"Well...with it being summer and now that I'm old enough, I've been thinking that maybe I could get myself a job," I say hoping she'll understand.

Her eyes widen surprised.

"My hijo, please don't tell me you want to do this to help me." She says worried and that surprised me a bit.

I thought she'd be opposed to it since I'm just 15.

"No, mamà, I want to make my own money and I want to gain a bit of experience, that's good right?" I ask uncertainly and she nods slightly a few times deep in thought.

"Yes, that's good but why so suddenly?" She asks confused and I realize my mistake.

Right, she knows me, she knows I hate socializing.

"I don't know I just thought that it could be good for me and that I could give it a try," I say refraining from telling the truth, I don't want to hurt my mom's feelings, she doesn't deserve it, she's my mom.

Again she seems deep in thought but eventually, she seems to have a made decision.

"Ok, I'll allow it. I know with my situation I can't help you much but I'll try to find something for you, I'll let you know." She says already convinced but I do a double take.

"No, mamà, it's fine, I'll find one myself," I say refusing her help and her eyes widen evidently surprised.

"But hijo, you're just 15, you haven't done anything like this before..." She says worried and I try to find a way to convince her.

"Mamà, I can't burden you with that, you have to take care of the kids, the kids need you," I say trying to convince her and she seems to consider it.

"Well that's true they need me but are you sure you'll be fine?" She asks concerned and I nod.

"Yes, mamà, I'll tell you if I need help," I say.

She looks at me in the eye and then she seems to have made a decision.

"Ok, you've convinced me hijo. But you have to keep your word." She says family and I nod.

"Yes, mamà, I will."

I can't believe this, I'll be getting my first job, well if I find one that is. Hopefully, I'll find one that'll take a 15-year-old with no prior experience.