3.5-The school trip p.2

Carson's pov

Our last day visiting places with all the classes has come to an end.

In the end, I had lots of fun today with Ella but there's one thought that I can't seem to get out of my head.

I have a crush on Emerick. It's crazy to know it may be true but just the idea makes me giddy.

As giddy as it makes me, I'm worried about something.

It's one thing that I might like Emerick but should he know? Does he like me? He seems to hate me but after this morning...

I really don't know, Emerick is so...confusing.

Right now we're eating our last dinner at a restaurant on the school trip and I'm sitting at the same table as Ella.

"Hey, Ella?" I say and she looks up to me still eating her food.

"Mm?" She says still eating.

"You know how you told me this morning I might have a crush on Emerick?" I ask her, her eyes widen and she instantly finishes eating.

"Yes? What about it?" She asks suddenly very curious.

"Do you think I should do something about it?" I ask unsure and her eyes widen evident she's curious.

"Well, it depends on you. Just yesterday he was mean to you but today he was somewhat nice?" She questions and that reminds me of yesterday.

"Right..." I say flattened.

"Aw, don't look so down. You might still have a chance." She says and instantly that makes me happy.

"Really you think so?" I say expectantly.

"Again, it depends on if he likes guys or not..." She trails off and that puts me in a down mood once again.

"Oh..." I say a bit down.

"So I guess this means you don't know if he likes guys?" She questions propping.

"Yeah...I don't..."

"Tonight is our last at the cabins and we'll be leaving tomorrow. I haven't heard the teachers mention that we'll be doing another campfire so we'll be free tonight. Maybe tonight is your chance to find out. It's your last chance after all." She says thoughtful yet excited at the idea.

"Oh wow...I kinda knew but I didn't think..." I say surprised and she smiles.

"You said you two used to be friends?" She asks and I nod.

"Yes..."

"Then you might have a higher chance he likes you." She smiles.

"You really think he likes me even if he's mean to me?"

"Well, I don't like how he's treating you but he seems nicer than he makes it out to be." She trails off losing her smile.

"Are you sure I should confess? Isn't it too soon? I just found out I might have a crush on him." I say unsure and that snaps her out of whatever thoughts she had.

"Maybe it is a bit early but I know that you really want to talk to him for some reason and tonight's your only chance, so good luck!" She says confidently and I smile.

"Ok, I'll try..." I say smiling embarrassed.

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Despite Ella saying we didn't have anything tonight after we returned to the campsite, we walked around for a bit and talked, mostly about Emerick.

Now I think I'm more confident. I need to do something or else I won't see him until August.

Even if he seems cold I know he's not deep down, especially not considering he let me fall asleep cuddling him when I was scared.

I say goodbye to Ella and start heading back to the cabin but as I grow nearing I feel more and more nervous.

I'm so nervous...What should I do? Will Emerick even be happy to see me? Will he push me away...?

I start having so many frightening thoughts and I panic.

I don't know what to do.

I think about what I should do but nothing comes to mind.

Ugh! Why did forget to ask Ella?!

I should ask her...

No! I can't go to her cabin it's strictly prohibited!

But what else...?

As I think I start walking in another direction.

I walk and I walk but I don't know where I'm going. All I see is cabins after cabins.

Eventually, I stop abruptly at a cabin that has the number 26.

That's Cayden's cabin.

Wait why am I here?

Oh...I must have just absent-mindedly come here, the only other male cabin I know.

Wait...maybe he knows what I should do. He has a girlfriend and everything, he must be an expert!

Besides seeing his cabin number reminds me of the favour Papa asked of me and so far I haven't done anything...

I haven't heard of Cayden at all from this entire trip!

Without thinking I knock on the door.

It doesn't take long for the door to open and luckily it's my brother that opens the door.

"Cayden," I say first relieved and he glares at me.

"What are you doing here at this hour? I thought you knew better to bother me." He says annoyed.

"I just wanted to check up on you but obviously you are..." I trail off.

"Absolutely fine." He completes my sentence with an annoyed smile.

"Right..." I say resizing how stupid this all seems.

"But you aren't here just for that are you?" He asks annoyed but I can by his tone he's curious.

"Yeah...you're right..." I say embarrassed at being caught and he grins.

"I knew it, what is it? You're lucky my roommate just left and my girlfriend too." He says now smiling and my eyes widen shocked to hear he broke the rules.

"Hey, don't start thinking of telling Papa or Dad." He warns a bit anxious.

"No, I won't..." I say still shocked about his revelation.

"Good, now what is it?" He asks annoyed yet curious.

"I need your help..." I say embarrassed and he frowns confused.

I hope he'll seriously help me.

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I can't believe I told him...I told him I like Emerick and he...Wow, he actually helped me. He was ecstatic at the idea surprisingly and
he didn't make fun of me for liking Emerick.

It's times like this that my brother surprises me by being an actual caring brother.

I'm still confused about everything but he told me about kissing stuff, about how I should do it when the timing feels right.

I don't understand it but I'll see for myself.

Though he doesn't believe I should confess yet, instead, he said I should test the waters a bit.

I'm confused about it but maybe that's what he meant by a kiss, but no matter what, he's right, it really is now or never.

I walk to my cabin and eventually, I arrive.

I take a deep breath.

Emerick's pov

As I've doing since we got back, I'm reading my book sitting on my bed but then suddenly the door unlocks and it's Carson.

He looks at me and he seems nervous? I can't tell.

I wonder where he went? It's like almost curfew time.

I try to ignore his presence and go back to reading my book but suddenly I notice that Carson approaches me and I don't know what to think of that.

Confused I let him do what he does. Then he comes even closer and he gets in my bed, right next to me...

We end up face-to-face with each other and suddenly my heart beats faster as Carson stares at me and then looks down at my lips.

What is going on?! Why am I letting this happen?! What am I doing?!

Then suddenly he inches closer and closer shyly and his lips become only mere centimetres of mine.

My heart beats even faster so confused about what's going on but then I feel it, his trembling lips on mine.

But it's as if the moment I feel it I regain my senses and push him away.

"What do you think you're doing?!" I say mad and shocked.

"I...I..." He says scared and embarrassed.

"What? You suddenly discovered you like guys and now you want to kiss the first guy you see?!" I say harshly mad but more mad at myself.

His eyes widen in fear.

"No! It's not that!" He panics blushing.

"I don't believe you. You broke rules number 1 and 2." I say harshly and he seems still scared.

"Emerick I'm sorry, I didn't mean to..."

"Don't talk to me," I say harshly and he wants to add something but he notices that I'm serious and luckily he understands and gets off my bed.

For the rest of the night, there remains an awkward silence between us where I am sure both are thinking about what just happened...I mean I certainly am especially considering he took away my first kiss!