Her goal was to make friends, but she just didn't understand why nobody wanted her by her side. Many many questions went through her mind, every time that she was refused, but she couldn't answer one of them.

Sometimes it was about her exterior appearances...

-Bethina, get lost, how can you even go out of your house with that hair?

Sometimes about her interior appearances...

-Fix your teeth, girly, you look like a donkey

They all laughed at her looks, everyone, every girl and almost every boy. She felt alone, too alone. No one to depend on, no one friendly, no shoulder to cry one when needed, only her. It was her and an empty space near, always an empty space. Her and the empty refrigerator, her and the empty seat next to her while she was attending College classes.

Her father worked overseas, and her mother was a school teacher.

But there was one boy from the whole town that was kind to her. His name was Pao Nu, and he was the only light in the rain and grey of her life. Pao was a long statured boy with perfect and aligned teeth, long and shiny white hair and dark blue eyes, he dressed well for every occasion.

 When she met him he was always friendly with her, he made her feel comfortable while being together. He was the same year in college as her, so the different was only a few months or so, between their age.

But that was five years ago, I haven't seen him in five years, the authorities told us that he just moved town, but I knew Pao and he wouldn't do such thing without saying something before that would happen, so I went to a mission, a mission of finding the perfect boy, Pao Nu.

It was the forth beginning of the summer, every summer I go out looking for him and I check out the places that I have been and I have asked for him.

First I walked my home town, but nobody could tell me anything, because apperantely no one knew anything.

The second summer I went with the bus around local cities, searching for him, but nothing

At the start of the third summer, I slowly started to lose my motivation, I felt like all the hope was lost, but that was when:

"Comedy talent show, starring Pao Nu"

My entire mood had risen' up to the sky, I almost started to sing, I was so happy, so excited. The poster dated back in 2002, that was 2 years ago, I had to keep going, I searched for clues, I asked circuses, I asked shops, pawns, restaurants, people on the street, I found out that he was quite funny and popular, but only one single lady told me where he could be right now... traveling pathways.

At the start of the fourth summer, things were getting weirder and weirder.

I took the train to a country near Bunmardky, but I went to some old leads to just see if there should be something that had to be seen, I went to a nursing home, where I found a lot of old grandfathers and grandmothers, they pinched my cheeks really hard and my nose too. There I found Tete Pao, Pao's grandfather, he told me about his grandson, what his goal his, why he left, and so on, but in another language, he wrote it on paper, which I will be to understand if someone would translate it to me.

I kept going in traveling pathways, still searching, I went a few talent shows, only three places knew who Pao Nu was, they told me that he was here two years ago, and after he headed to Ienpa for a talent competition.

I slept in a motel for one night then went to Ienpa, with the train, the train arrived in nine hours, it was kinda of a long and boring ride, but I couldn't keep my look off of the window, the outside of the train, the forests, the flowered plains, the daily sunset, it was amazing, I put my phone down and just stared at it, like I was hypnotized, the natural beauty of the beautifully formed grey clouds, the cracks of the sun in the cloudy sky, everything, it was just... stunning.

I arrived the southern countries, the first man I have asked was Pao Nu's manager, the chances for this to happen were one in a bilion, lucky me!

I told him everything and he told me, he did a phone call, he turned around upsetly at me and told me.

"He does not want to see you"

I asked him constantly "Why, why  does he not want me?" "Did I do something wrong?"

He replied with "He said that, maybe in another life"

I went back home, I cried all the way on the walk, the train and the bus home, the stunning natural painting was now watered down, I could only see rivers and ponds in front of my eyes.

I went back home and went back to sleep, but I coudln't do it, but I had to, I could not live any longer with this kind of tiredness and stress on my head... I had to... take some... rest.

The next day I woke up, I was still in the same country.

-Hmm... wierd"

I looked around, I had no doubt it my mind, It was a dream, I was so happy.

I check my phone and I see one missed call and four new text messages.

Missed call: Pao Nu

Messages: 

-Hey

-It's been a while

-Some friends told me that you are in a southern country

-So... wanna grab a drink :3

My eyes reflected his wanted messages, the blue light of the phone was reflected on my face but I did not care, I just bit my lip, closed my eyes happily and hugged the phone for a few seconds and then I replied.

-Heyy!

-For sure, why not?

After all this time of searching for Pao Nu, I feel like this was more of an adventure for me, than the search of Pao Nu. I feel like it was more a story of the memories made along the day, while searching for my friend, was that Pao Nu's goal all this time, to revive my sense of life, my sense of existence, to give me a purpose of life? Maybe, but who I am to judge.