despite my greatest efforts to stay happy with the sunsets and the warm flames that is Clover Hargrave I find that all his actions and kindness is more irritating then endearing now, I find that the more I hear his voice it is nothing but honeyed. And yet despite wanting to part ways with Clover I still long for the feeling that I had before all this, I long for the days before that night at the park, before he scoffed at others and pretended to care for me right after. In all truth I have no idea what I'm looking for, but I do know that Hargrave has never truly been what I wanted. If I could go back to the day in the park, the day he held my hand while such words came out his mouth I would slap him straight across his lying face. And despite all my wishes, I can't leave, there is only one outcome. Clover lies to my father about everything, not even thinking about how it would end and the journey that had just began would end just like that. My current mission is to bore Hargrave, make him break it off. I shall never admit it but despite the day in the park, despite the pain Clover Hargrave brings, I shall never hate him, and i don't know why, but i know deep down despite knowing what I'd have to do, I won't do it, not because I love him or ever had, but because he's like me and have just figured things out, and if I would be forced to have my name be treated as a star exploded millions of light years away I would have already done it myself.

              

                       -love, Aura