To close my eyes in front of another human

Is the biggest test of trust

For closing my eyes makes me vulnerable

I sleep out of exhaustion and when my eyes shut

A feeling is dug up from deep inside me

It is hot and painful in the most painless way

My back hunches and heat rises to the crook of my neck

My hearing intensifies and to keep my eyes closed

After hearing slight movement is impossible

I am afraid

So if I close my eyes 

Trust that I trust you

I feel safe with you