14-Heartbreaking decision

Garrett's pov

The other day I went to the gay bar with Brandon and it didn't go all too well. I know that because I cried.

What was even worse is that after Brent mentioned I was crying, Brandon didn't even apologize. I think I never heard him apologize before. He just tried to make me forget about it by making me dance with him and drink too. Later on, we had sex as usual, his way to apologize.

Now I feel so pathetic for crying but I know that I just couldn't help it. I hate it when Brandon mentions we are just mere f**k buddies. It hurts my feelings. I always thought we were more than that and him bringing me back to reality just hits hard.

I don't really understand, with everything we've done those past few weeks, we can't be considered just as mere fuck buddies as he says. We've done too much for it to be the case.

Just thinking about us being only mere sex partners makes me think about how much it changed between us since the start.

If it weren't for my persistence, every meal together, sleeping together, sharing each other's apartments, seeing each other after work, our time spent together and having sex together, everything wouldn't have happened.

Even if I know that our situation right now is still not the relationship I want, as it's unfortunately just sexual in nature, I hope my persistence will help but I know that I sadly lost most of that persistence. That's thanks to the fact I always surrender to Brandon's attractiveness.

Even if that worries me a lot, work comes first and that's what I have to do now.

As I just arrived, I go into the elevator and go up my floor. As soon as I land on said floor, I head for my desk.

At my desk, I'm met by Rachel that has a soft smile on her face. She notices me and she comes towards me.

"Ready to work?"

"Yeah.."

"What is making you in such a mood again?" She asks worried.

"It's nothing. I'm fine."

"No, you're not fine."

"Ok.."

"It's Brandon again is it?"

"Why do you always know that?"

"Because he's the only one you talk about." I blush feeling flustered.

"Oh.."

"Let's sit down and tell me what he did before we seriously have to get our work done."

"It's not that bad but ok.."

I told her most of our issues and what I think about them because she encouraged me to say what bothers me.

"Garrett...I just really don't understand why you're letting him treat you like that."

"I know that but Brandon has his good sides too."

"Really? The last few weeks, it's always been about his bad side."

"I didn't notice..."

"Does he make you happy or are you trying to make yourself believe that?"

"Rachel! Don't you dare say that! I love spending time with Brandon!"

"Are you really sure? He keeps making you cry."

"But it doesn't mean he doesn't make me happy. It just makes me sad that he doesn't like me back."

"Or you mean he only treats you as a toy."

"No! I tend to have some thoughts but the number of time I spend with him..."

"Yeah, I do agree that you spend too much time with him."

"Whenever I don't have work I'm always with him as we were in a relationship but...last time as I said, he basically confirmed we aren't anything more than um fuck buddies.."

"And that's what makes you sad?"

"Yes...I wish he loved me, just as much as I do."

"So, you two are together all the time but you're nothing more than mere sex buddies in his eyes?"

"Yes..." I say already on the verge of crying just by the mere thoughts of him.

"Wow...I guess he just doesn't care about you. Maybe he really uses you. Maybe not as a toy but you know what I mean."

"No, I refuse to believe that!"

"Then what do you want to believe?"

"That we're more than what we are!"

"Gosh, Garrett your situation is so complicated. Why did you have to fall in love with such a man?"

"Because I just did. He's perfect. He's everything I want in a guy."

"And he obviously doesn't like you back, that's unrequited love right there."

"Rachel.."

"I think you already waited too long. If he doesn't love you back you shouldn't continue leaving in a lie."

"No, it's not a lie. What Brandon and I have is real."

"Then why does he treat you that way? If you say you two are more than that, why does he not see it?"

"I don't know..."

"Probably because he doesn't want you that way, Garrett. You deserve a man that would love you."

"Rachel..."

I hug her tears falling from my eyes. I feel so pathetic right now...

"It's ok. Everything will be alright." She runs her hand in my hair as I cry on her shoulder.

"You don't mind that I'm making a mess on your blouse?"

"No, it's fine. You need to let it all out."

"I'm sorry..."

"Don't be, you needed a shoulder to cry on."

I stop crying and get out of her shoulder.

"I'm so pathetic..."

"No, don't say that."

"Still I can't help it."

"I hate seeing you cry like that. If Brandon makes you cry like that you should take a break from him. I still can't believe you two spend so much time together. If it were up to me I would feel suffocated."

''Even if you say that, I still can't abandon Brandon like that."

"But Garrett, you can't leave things like that, if you do, you'll be stuck in the same situation."

"I know that but..."

"Look, Garrett. I'm just telling you what would be better for you but in the end, it's up to you. I won't force you to take a break from him. I think you two need some space but that's me after all."

"Thanks, Rachel."

"Anytime."

"We should work now or else the boss will yell at us."

"Yeah"

——————-

Yesterday I saw Brandon as usual and he didn't mention what happened the other day. Now seeing that ignores what happened, I really wonder if Rachel was right after all.

Should I really take a break from him? Will some space help us in the end?

Through, I know that having sex every single day is tiring but I got used to it because I actually enjoy it. Sure my ass hurts every time but when the only time I get to make Brandon happy and I can feel loved by him is when he's inside me, so sex, well I would take the chance anytime.

It used to bother me with work but getting used to this made me change my whole schedule and my preferences. I'd do anything for him...To make him happy...

Regardless, my parents called this morning and that made me realize I haven't seen them since that family dinner. That's a whole month! I've never gone that long without seeing them. Now I really miss them. Was I really too occupied seeing Brandon all the time? That's bad...

Anyways, since it's Saturday, I decided that I'll visit them. Amanda, my sister, will be there too, so I really want to see them.

I arrive with my car and take my bouquet of white tulips. Unfortunately, it's raining outside so I run up fast to the door. I knock and I get greeted by my mom.

"Garrett sweetheart I missed you!"

"Me too Mom!" She takes me in her arms.

"Is that Garrett?"

Suddenly, my Dad comes next to us.

"Yes, it is him."

"Wow, I thought you forgot about your Mom and me. You're so busy those days."

He takes the bouquet from my hands and puts it on the nearest table.

"I'm sorry about that. I didn't realize time went by so fast."

"Wait, is that really Garry?!"

My sister Amanda comes in the picture and I get out of my mom's grasp.

"It really is!"

"Manda! Gosh, I missed you too!"

"What about me? I don't get to have a miss you?" My Dad smiles playfully.

"I missed you too Dad."

"I missed you too kiddo. Now come in!"

"Yes let's go in the living room!" Amanda says happily.

Gosh, they really missed me a whole lot. I feel so bad for not seeing them for so long.

We go into the living room and we all sit down. My parents go in front of us, Amanda and I next to each other.

"So, you're husband is not here again?"

"He always has those meetings on Saturdays it's crazy."

"I feel so bad for you Manda."

"No, it's fine I'm used to it."

"Now let's stop this chit-chat about Jonathan. What made you so busy like that?" My Dad smiles teasingly.

"Oh um..." I get flustered.

"Is it that Brandon guy that came with you last time?" My Mom asks.

"Yes..." I blush utterly red, embarrassed.

"Are you two dating?!" Amanda shouts excitedly.

"No..." I say sadly.

"What? With how much time you were with him, you two are still not dating?" My Dad asks confused.

"Yeah, we aren't dating..."

"Man, I was sure you two would date after our family dinner!"

"So, why aren't you dating yet?" My Mom asks concerned but with a small smile.

"Ah...um it's complicated.."

"Complicated how?! If you two like each other date!"

"Um...I recall what that Brandon guy said last time and now that I think about it, it didn't sound like he was planning to date Garry any time soon." Amanda suddenly says seriously.

"Yeah...Is he hurting you, Garrett? Is it because of his past? His views on dating and marriage?"

"Um...I don't know..."

"But you're still with him right?"

"Yes, I still see him."

"I knew he was a fuck boy!"

"Amanda language!"

"Sorry..."

"Garrett, why are you still with him? He doesn't seem to appreciate you a whole lot. There's plenty of great guys out there."

"Mom!"

"Your Mom is right. I don't think that Brandon guy has good intentions."

"No, don't think that! Brandon is a good guy, I tell you!"

"Are you sure he's the right guy for you?" My Mom asks.

"Um..." I blush feeling flustered.

"He can't even give a proper answer! That guy is not good for you!"

"Dad! Don't say that!"

"Then, why are you still with Brandon, Garry?! Mom and Dad want you to get married soon and maybe have kids on your own. You're closing on your twenties. You can't risk dating such a guy!"

"Amanda is right, sweetheart, we just want you to be happy. Amanda find her other half and I believe you can too."

"What about Brandon? Why do you hate him so much?!"

"He's hurting you and I can tell. I don't like seeing my child hurt. Plus he doesn't share the same values as us." My Dad says honestly.

"Dad.."

"It's for your own good, Garrett. You can't let that guy waste your life. We don't want you to repeat your past mistake." My Mom says.

Immediately, flashbacks from my past relationship with my toxic ex come rolling back and I cry. I haven't thought about him in a long time and the first time I do, I cry...

Then, I can't help but run away from them even if I know it's not their fault.

"Mom, why did you say that!"

That's the last thing I hear before I get out and run to my car in the pouring rain. There's just one person that can comfort me right now from all those flashbacks and I'm going to them now.

—————-

I run up the stairs and knock on the door. It doesn't take long before I'm met with someone that I believe can comfort me.

"Woah, why are you crying Rett?" I crash into his chest so tightly that it makes him fall to the floor.

"What's gotten into you!? Why did you push me like that?!"

I get up a bit but I remain sitting on his chest, which is panting from falling so suddenly like that.

"I want you to fuck me."

"Ok? We always do that anyways? Why are you being so dramatic right now?"

"Just...fuck...me..."

He immediately understands what I mean by that. I can tell by the growing lust on his face.

"Then, if you so insist on that, I'll gladly do so."

He tries to move, obviously failing, that's when I realize it's my cue to get out from his chest. I get up from his chest, only for him once he's up on his two feet, to grab me by my waist and place my legs between his waist. I gladly hook into him like a koala, as I hold myself into place thanks to my hands on his shoulders.

Then, he almost runs into his bed and we crash there. There he finally captures my lips devouring them and I just whine feeling good. This is what I need, I want to forget the past. I have much better now.

He kisses me into my neck and I let him, I moan from time to time from the overwhelming pleasure. It doesn't take long before our clothes our both taken out.

There, I look at his dick completely up in glory. That dick is turned on just for me. Just for me...I want it in me...

"Put it in already."

"Damn, I don't know what it is with you today but I like this very much." He says he likes it...I have to be more needy.

"I want you in me."

I say word by word while staring straight into his eyes. He looks like a kid that just saw the best candy of its kind.

"Ok, since you so desperately want it, I won't spear you. You better not regret it."

He comes closer and aligns his dick with my ass checks. I move slightly to give him a better view of my ass and he just smirks.

"I want you in!" I whine.

"Ok, ok. Here I go."

He pushes into me and I cry out of pleasure but I don't care right now, I just want him to love me deep inside me.

"Gosh, you're so tight. So good."

I moan loudly as he starts thrusting in and out. He groans at the sensation. I feel so whole right now. We might do it every single day but each time it's always the best. I just wish he'd say he loves me. I don't want it to be like my ex all over again.

"Brandon!" I moan his name and he speeds up his pace.

"Gosh, you're voice is so sexy when you say my name. Say it again."

"Brandon!"

He groans and I moan at the overwhelming sensation of his dick thrusting in and out of me.

Deep down I want to moan that I love him but I refrain from doing so, from a fear he won't want to do this anymore.

"Yes! Perfect! You're so obedient today! I love it!"

As he continues thrusting into me and giving me such praises, I realize that he doesn't actually care about me, his praises only concern the pleasure I make him feel.

While I think that way, he takes control of my dick and strokes it. I eventually come but I don't realize it as I'm too blinded by my thoughts and pleasure.

So as soon as he comes into me and he slides out of me I burst out crying.

"Woah why are you crying? Did you enjoy it that much?"

"Brandon..."

"Yeah?"

He looks at me all confused and I look back at him, not knowing if the decision I'm about to make is the best one.

"We need to spend some time apart."

"What? I don't understand. It's not like we are together all the time. You have enough space."

"No...you don't get it, Brandon...I need some so space from you. Let's take a break."

"Huh? We can take a break from sex if that's what you want?"

"No..by taking a break, I mean not seeing you for a while." All the rest of his good mood left vanishes in an instant.

"Are you serious Rett? I thought you liked doing this?"

"Yes, I am..."

"Wow...and there you have you that makes me have the most pleasure ever and right after you ruin it with this. Unbelievable."

"I'm sorry Brandon, I really am."

"I don't want to hear your sorry's." My heart shutters in a million pieces.

"No, don't misunderstand! I still want you but!"

"But what Garrett?!"

"I need some time to think things through."

"Why would you need that?"

"Brandon please promise me you won't see someone else while I'm gone?"

I say all broken and all helpless. I'm crying hysterically and he doesn't seem to be affected by that all that much.

"Fine, do what you want. It wasn't gonna last anyways."

"I'm sorry Brandon..." I beg.

"Go be sorry somewhere else."

I get dressed and leave Brandon's apartment crying and left with a broken heart. Mom, Dad, Rachel and Amanda this is one is for you all. I hope I'm making a good choice and that you were all right in the end.