13-Confusing feelings

Brandon's pov

I've been so confused those past few days. Not only because Garrett did a surprise birthday party for me but it's more than that.

I'm still surprised that he actually did that. I never celebrated my birthday, at least not since I was a child. So the other day was completely new. It was nice and simple. Fun and even his gift too...I liked it very much...Yeah too much!

We had sex as usual but his gift consisted of a sexy outfit, like real sexy it made me painfully hard in under 30 seconds.

Through as we did it, it was different, yeah maybe his gift changed things but it just wasn't the same. I did some things I wouldn't have usually done before and that makes me slightly confused.

I'm the master of sex but never has it been more than sex.

Though as special as my night on my birthday was, I had to go back to reality so I didn't dare to do all that again.

Another thing that I don't understand is that he seems to care a lot about me and I don't know what to think of that.

I like to think he does too much but he seems to enjoy it. I thought he wasn't one for surprises but he showed me the opposite.

All that makes me confused. From my actions to his actions, maybe just Garrett overall and I don't like feeling lost in my thoughts! I like living life as if there aren't any problems! Freely!

Gosh, he's just here to have sex but here he is doing all that for me...I never thought he would go to such length.

What makes it even more confusing is that he's been making me feel in certain ways I've never felt before. I don't know how to explain it. I like unpredictable things but...this is too much unpredictable.

Those feelings...Gosh, I don't know what to make of them. I'll admit Garrett means a lot more to me than he should. He's no longer just a guy I have sex with. He's the guy I see every single day in my life. We basically share apartments. We eat together and so much more.

Even if it's that, I'll admit it's weird at this point, though I would do anything for sex.

Regardless of my confusion over everything, there's one thing I clearly don't like. He's been annoying me with this therapy thing. I'm not a sick person! I'm fine. Gosh, sometimes I think he pities me, I don't want him to pity me.

He keeps saying my life isn't normal but is it through? It's not like I care. I have fun. It already changed a lot since he arrived in my life...Gosh, this feels so romantic...Ugh, romantic.

I think I haven't done one of those in a long time. I just have sex all the time. Relationships suck and besides it's too much commitment. I'm a free man! I don't want to be held to a wife and have kids, then, I wouldn't have a life. Ok, maybe a husband but still, it sounds so boring.

That's what scares me, Garrett wants that, at least I think he does. His family surely wanted that...Gosh, why am I thinking about that and letting myself be confused by all of this? He's just my sex buddy, nothing more.

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Before Garrett left he proposed something and I'm quite surprised by what he asked. It's Saturday today and I was getting ready to get to work like I usually do before he mentioned something about going out.

He somehow convinced me. He knows I couldn't say no to that even if I don't like the aspect of going out like that. Just the way he said it made me curious and then I was in his plan.

His plan meant I had to miss a day at work. Clearly displeased by that fact, I told him it was the last time I'm calling off from work for him. He agreed despite not being so happy about that news.

I called off work while he was still there since he didn't believe I would actually call off. Geez...he's not my mom...

Anyways, he's planning something for sure. I don't know what it is but he's not coming here to have sex again at least not right now.

Gosh, what could it be? He's got me so excited about this. I really hope it's going to be cool. I check my feed on my phone in the meantime but I only get bored. I want some action now! Ugh, I really want to know what it is!

—————-

He's here...and he's not dressed formally. I'm confused. What is all this?

"Hey" He smiles and I guess I do too.

"Hey"

"Don't worry we're not doing something too fancy. It's going to be fun I promise." Yeah, judging from his outfit yeah, definitely not fancy.

"Then, what is it?" I ask curious.

"Maybe if you take a good look at my clothes it'll give you a hint."

Huh? I knew his clothes weren't fancy but why is he asking that? I do a double check of his clothes and indeed notice it looks similar to...

"Why are you dressed up in gym clothes?"

"Because we are going there."

"We're training at a gym?" I ask confused.

"Yeah, thought you might like it." Gosh, he sounds like me...

"I knew you wanted me to get fit!" I smile and he becomes flustered.

"It's not that. Training could be a good thing for you. I think you'll like it but not as much as sex of course." He smiles. Gosh, he knows me too much already.

"Yeah, so you're training too?"

"I'll try, I'm not good at it."

"Well, I'll help you!"

"I'm sure you will." He smiles softly.

"That's the only thing we are doing?" Oh gosh, that look. There's more right?

"Yeah, we're doing something else but I'm keeping it a surprise."

"Ok..." I say slightly disappointed.

"Go put your gym clothes on and bring some
extra clothes. Can't stick to sweaty clothes."

He orders and I notice he has a bag in his right hand. Damn, Garrett ordering me...This feels so weird. I don't remember when was the last time someone gave me orders like that other than work or sex in my life.

"Yes, baby!" I tease and he becomes deep red. So easy to tease him. I laugh.

Then, I put some gym clothes on quickly and not even a minute later I'm back.

"Ready?"

"Yes"

We get out of my apartment and we get in his car. To which he drives us there. It takes us a bit longer because of traffic but besides that it's fine. We finally arrive, we get out of the car and head inside.

"Gosh, I haven't trained in a gym in years!" I say excited and all smiles.

"Really?"

"Yeah! I don't know where to start first!"

"You choose."

I look around and notice some weightlifting pounds. I'm definitely using that. I go there and he follows me from behind. Luckily there aren't a lot of people today on a Saturday afternoon. Most of them go in the mornings.

"Argh they are heavy."

"Don't hurt yourself."

"No, no I won't. Don't worry. You can try something too."

"No, I want to watch you." I frown at that.

"You don't want to go on those treadmills?"

"No...I prefer watching you." I smirk.

"You like seeing me in action?" He blushes.

"Brandon..." He whines.

"Yeah, yeah watch me."

I say nonchalantly as I raise 30 pounds of weights in the air. Gosh, I haven't done that in a while and it shows.

"Hey be careful."

"Don't worry Rett. I know my thing." I smile.

"Ok.."

I do a series of weights and he just focuses on me. His facial expressions say a lot about what he thinks of how I'm currently training. He's basically lost in a daze. I knew he wanted me to get fit for him.

I finally had enough of those weights and put them down. That wakes up Garrett from his daze.

"Lost in thought?" I tease.

"Oh, uh, yeah, sorry..." He blushes. Damn, he blushes easily and that's fun.

"If you worked your body off you wouldn't have this issue."

"What?"

"Hmm, I have an idea." I smile at my new idea in mind.

"What kind of idea?" He says worried.

"Sense you don't want to work out, how about you help me work out?"

"Huh?"

"I'll do some pushes up and you get on my back. Mind that?"

"Wait...aren't I too heavy for that?"

"No, you're quite light. Come on hop on my back."

I put myself in a push-up position and he shyly hops on my back.

"Don't get hard by that." I tease and he just blushes, flustered.

"Don't tease me..." He whines.

"Yeah, yeah. I'll stop. Hold on to me. I'll start moving." He nods and I take it as a go.

I start doing push-ups. Indeed he is heavy but I actually like the extra weight and it's Garrett too...

He grips my neck tightly which I don't like a lot since it hurts but no way am I giving up.

After a few push-ups, the extra weight starts to be taking a toll on me. What doesn't help is that I feel something poking my back and I know exactly what it is.

So I give up and fall into the floor. Garrett yelps in surprise.

"Liked that?" I tease and he blushes.

"Yeah..."

"Did you like the sensation of my muscles flexing that much?" I tease and his blush becomes deeper.

"Brandon..."

"What?"

"You're so good at this..."

"At what?"

"Working out...Never would I be able to do all that...Do you like working out?"

"I guess I do?" I ask confused about why he's shifting the subject.

"Really? Then...do you want to come here more often?"

"I mean we can't come here often because of work and everything but we can do push-ups like these every day you know?" He blushes at the idea.

"You would like that?"

"Yeah, I wouldn't mind." I smile and he does too.

"Ok...Anything to make you happy." Huh? Even if that's confusing I choose to shrug it off and focus on the matter at hand.

"Your hard cock keeps poking my back and it makes me turn on." He blushes.

"I'm sorry...You said to not get hard..."

"Oh, Rett. I don't mind. Now let's finish our workout session early and focus on our little problem at hand." I tease and he blushes even more.

"Ok..."

And we do just that. We do it in the changing room in the showers.

—————-

I thought it was all over but somehow Garrett got me into a concert. A concert huh...I definitely never go there but it could be fun. I don't know the band but he says it's one of his favourite bands so I decided to stick here and enjoy it.

Earlier we were waiting in line. He got us tickets which I find crazy. He bought it for me. No way is he paying for something for me. Next time it'll be me! He said it was all planned which surprises me. Why did he choose to go with me?

We got our place in the crowd more so in the back and I can tell Garrett is excited for the band to come out.

"So, it's your favourite band?" He smiles.

"Yeah, me and my mother love them a lot."

"Cool, do you go to their concerts often?"

"No...They don't often come here so it's the first time I get to see them."

Now I really don't know why he brought me here. It's not like me to ask such questions but I'm curious.

"Why didn't you go with your mom?"

"Oh...I...I wanted to go with you.."

"Wait really? You should've told me sooner! I would've brought you here!"

"Would you really?" What kind of question is that?

"I mean maybe not before but next time yeah."

"You like concerts?"

"Well, I never go to them often."

"Because they are expensive?"

"We are not discussing money issues at a concert." He lowers his gaze feelings melancholic. Argh, I hate it when he does that.

"I hope you'll like the band."

"I'll try to."

The concert finally starts and Garrett gets all excited. For some reason, it makes me smile and it confuses me. Why does seeing Garrett happy make my heart beat skip a beat?

—————-

It's been a week since then and not a lot has changed. Ok, maybe the fact that I do push-ups while he's on my back every single day. It wasn't a joke it is reality. Let's just say it makes us hungry for each other.

Regardless, I think I actually enjoy it. I never thought of such a thing before but now that we do, I don't want to stop. I'm already gaining muscles from that and I like it.

Having sex every day has its advantages and disadvantages. For instance, because I did it every day I wasn't in the best shape as I didn't work out but it also made sure I didn't gain weight.

Anyways, I'm heading to the bar tonight with him.

I was starting to miss the bar and once I mentioned it he badly wanted to go so I agreed to let him come with me. As it's Friday today, Brent is obviously working so this makes it so much better.

I haven't seen him since my birthday and I was starting to miss the guy. Anyways, that time when he was drunk he said some suspicious things. I need to investigate tonight.

I wanted to walk as I usually do but Garrett wanted to go by car so that's what we're doing.

We get in his car and in no time we are in the bar.

As soon as we get in, I can tell Garrett wants to hold my hand probably because he doesn't like the looks people are giving me, though, I don't do anything.

We get on the bar stool as I notice Brent and he notices us too.

"Hey, Bran! I was starting to think you'd never come here again!"

"Oh don't say that. This bar will always be my favourite."

"Because it's where you met Garrett?" He teases and Garrett hears it. He gets all flustered.

"Oh stop mentioning that. I like this bar that's all."

"You sure?" He smiles brightly, oh the f**ker.

"Yeah, yeah."

"So what is making you two come here today?"

"I was missing this place of course and Rett decided to tag along." I shake his shoulder to get him to answer.

"Yeah, I wanted to come."

"Awh you missed me that much?! How sweet!"

"Yeah as if. Now what is up with you?"

"What do you mean by that?"

"Don't pretend nothing's wrong you little sh*t." He doesn't seem taken by surprise that but instead, Garrett's eyes go wide at my choice of words.

"Yo, your man doesn't like it when you talk to me like that." He winks at Garrett and he actually blushes! Now that makes me pissed off!

"Stop changing the subject. You mentioned the name Gavin when you were wasted and thought I was him. Who is he? Finally got yourself a fuck buddy?" He actually gets taken off guard by that.

"I guess yeah. I didn't like him much but one night he and I got it on."

"I thought you wanted something serious."

"Wrong person to ask that. Anyways, he was irresistible!" He says all excited and I just roll my eyes at his comment.

"I knew you'd come around."

"Um, Gavin?"

"Yeah? Does this bother you, Garrett?" Brent asks all smiles but worry in his voice. Ugh, I hate it when he does that!

"Um...I thought he was the guy from last time that wasn't nice to me."

"The guy with black ink hair?" Brent questions.

"Yeah..."

"Yeah, that's him. I know he was mean to you but he can be like that sometimes."

"Wait that's the guy you mentioned about to me, Rett?"

"Yeah, the guy that threatened me."

"Wow...Ok, guess my old flings go for Brent now." I say nonchalantly.

"I mean you have so many of those that it makes sense that they go for me now."

"Yeah, I get that but a built guy like you? I'm surprised they haven't gone to you before."

"Stop flustering me."

"So you and Gavin. Is it serious?"

"As serious as you and Garrett are." I instantly glare at him and Garrett lowers his gaze.

"Don't use Garrett and me as an example. There's nothing serious between us. We are just fuck buddies." I say harshly completely forgetting Garrett is there in the first place.

"Keep telling yourself that because you just made Garrett cry."

What? I turn a bit and notice that Garrett is hiding his face and despite the disco lights, I can see that he's crying indeed.

F**k...I f**ked up again, did I?