It's been a days, seen what happened, but I still living keep going towards the meaningless.

Right now Sensei dismissed the class early so I was waiting the bell to ring so I can head home.

Should we found meaning in the world of meaningless? Maybe Yes and No, neither of those, make plan for the day, not for the future, because we don't know the other side of present. Like today, should I commit suicide, or I should go to home and sleep or read a book.

I am not some kind of existentialist, who make a meaning for the future, I am a man who shouldn't seek to create our own meaning but we should stare into the face of the Absurd and rebel against this meaninglessness, but rebellion must respect the limits that it discovered in itself.

If the abyss is in front of me, I stared at it, with my coldest gazed at it, and just walked away, and decided to have a cup of tea.

*Bells rings*

Well enough day dreaming, let's head home.

As I was putting all my stuff inside of my bag, I felt in my side that someone closed standing beside me.

"Are you free today Asahi-kun?" And so were one its Hikari-san, she still have the enthusiast aura.

"No, I am always free 24-7." I said.

"Really then let's head to the mall!" So bright!! Here energetic, killing my rotten core.

キタ～キタ～(Kita Kita)

"What we will do there?" I asked.

"What else, to enjoy. Well wait me at the front gate, I have a meeting with the other student council member, and the disciplinary group."

And so, I headed to the front gate of the school, waiting for Hikari, suddenly my phone, notified and I looked who is it.

And someone texted me, using their own phone number, and I recognized this number.

This guy, sure want to revive a rotten tomato, once the tomato die, its over.

And so suddenly.....

"Asahi-kun did you wait long?" And so, Hikari run towards me, I put down my phone and ignored the messaged, and put my phone to my side pocket.

"Not quite." And suddenly. I noticed two girls are following Hikari. The one them wearing a white long sock, and the other one wearing a black sock, means the white one is our junior and the black is like me a second year.

"Aree~ who is this poor guy?" The junior girl asked me.

"Asahi Kuromi." I said.

"Ah, nice to meet you Asahi-ahh, I don't see you in the first year and second year?"

Really am I that unpopular?

"Asahi-kun is my classmate." Hikari said.

"Oh, so Asahi-senpai then. My name is Sachiko Rin." A cheeky junior, who likes to teased other people.

Suddenly I can feel a hatred towards me.

And so the same year as I am, walked and pointed towards me.

"You.. Don't misunderstand that, Hikari likes you because she approached you."

To be honest, I really don't care.

"O-Okay." I replied to her.

"Let's go, then." And so the three of them walked in front of me, and so I was following behind them, I can see them enjoying talking to each other.

Suddenly Hikari slowed down to match my pace.

"Sorry about Fuyumi said, earlier."

"No, its okay, there's no one to blame. And what she said is not true either."

"Hehe, I know Asahi-kun, is not a fan of having a relationship, so I know those are not your intention towards me." She said to me.

Relationship, what is relationship, is it a ways to killed time, or it's to gave us meaning to not face the absurd life? Or maybe we want something in return, towards love, desire and lust. Or maybe this is some kind of decadent state. All I want to say, face the absurd and live by the present, what the present brings you, accept it and live by it, because we can't control future event. What foods come out the kitchen that your mother made, eat it, and enjoyed it, even if its tasteless. What matter you show your expression that your enjoying, even if its tasteless.

 'One must imagine Sisyphus happy.'

"You're right, about that, I am not some sort of beast, that been released to this world." I said to her

And so Hikari gave me a confused looks, and she just laughed about what I have said.

Therefore, we continued to walked for a minutes, and finally we have arrived at the entrance of the mall.

And so, I just followed them behind.

Suddenly, as were walking.

"Ne, Hikari-senpai, let's watch some movie?" Sachiko said.

"I heard a new remake of Romeo & Juliet is airing today." Fuyumi said.

"Really then let's go." Hikari said

And so, we walked to the cinema, but as were walking to head there, Hikari talked to me, while those two in front of us talking to each other.

"Sorry about that Asahi-kun, I will pay your ticket for the movie." She said to me.

"No its fine, no need to pity me, I pay my own ticket." But this movie's genre is not my type.

And so, we take the line to buy the ticket, I was behind them in line.

A few minutes have passed they, all buy the ticket, even me, the clerk gave me a weird looks, maybe she thinking 'Really this hopeless guy want to watch this movie? he is into this genre?' Well like I care about that.

And so, we entered the cinema, I was sitting far from left from them, in my right is Hikari.

And so, the movie have started, I was bored as hell watching this, every girl cry, some guys maybe. But for me, I didn't shred a tear.

A few hour have passed, the movie have finished.

"That was sad." Sachiko said and wiped her tears.

"Hehe, but in the end, Juliet father felt guilty." Hikari sound positive.

"But this guy didn't shred a tear, are you even a human?" Fuyumi asked me.

"Well, its not that sad at all." I said.

"You really a weirdo." Fuyumi said to me.

So I will tell why I didn't shred a tears. A story of two people, who love each other, but their both parent prevent them from marrying each other, because their parent have different beliefs, towards love.

Lord Capulets have a beliefs of hatred towards Romeo Family. And so, that's why he don't want Juliet to marry Romeo, but this lead to tragedy, Juliet Father, and Juliet, and Romeo the three of them living because of the meaning of love, and Juliet father living by the meaning of hatred. With this, all of them fell into abyss, the tragedy of Juliet and Romeo, and so after Juliet death, Capulet just realize that he really likes Juliet as her daughters.

So, what if they didn't find any meaning to live, then tragedy will not strike them. What if they continued living without meaning, just the living by the meaningless.

Then they will never hate each other, they will not love each other.

In the end the people who will gave meaning to their life, will fell to tragedy, and people who didn't gave meaning in life, but still living will never realized and noticed the tragedy. With this they will never be stop by the disease of life.

And so they all planned to play at the arcade.

A few hours have passed, they decided to buy some clothes.

"I wait outside." I said.

And so they went inside the clothing store.

I realized people who chasing meaning in life, sometimes fell into abyss. And people who doesn't chase meaning, and still living into this meaningless, world, will just stared at the abyss, and walked away.

A few minutes has passed.

I know some guys, will be irritated, right now, but will hide it. But me, I didn't don't care at all. Even if I stand here all day waiting for them.

And so, they finished buying clothes, to be honest, Sachiko and Fuyumi is the two who bought some clothes, and Hikari maybe the judge if the clothes is good or not.

They headed to me, and so, we decided to leave the mall, and headed home.

Me and Hikari is the only two walking here, both Sachiko and Fuyumi separated from us.

And so suddenly Hikari speak. "I have fun today, Asahi-kun. And you?"

Happiness, you will never have happiness tomorrow, nor in the future, the only time we can be happy is today. Only today.

"Well, maybe." I said.

And so, she snicker as I said that. "Hehe, you really a weird guy."

Therefore we continued to walked and separated at the end.

I feel like enjoying, or kill myself, or reading some book later. But in the end, I decided to read some books at my place.