"Are you done?" Yeong-su asks awkwardly, as Ha-neul and Hye-jin are still hugging him.
"No!" both Ha-neul and Hye-jin exclaim playfully, as they chuckle and won't let him go. Yeong-su chuckles as well.
"I ... think we better get going," Yeong-su says, his arms still in the air. They finally let go of him. Ha-neul looks at Yeong-su's face, admiring his handsome and youthful features. Yeong-su's smile fades away as his downcast countenance returns, his eyes falling back to the ground. He adds, "It's getting dark, which is good for us. Follow me."
The three of them walk down the near empty street with Yeong-su in the lead. This is a more residential area with not that many people out and about, so they don't feel the need to duck into alleys as they periodically emerge from the darkness in between the streetlights lining the sidewalk. Ha-neul notices that Yeong-su has no problem looking up and finding a path forward. As Yeong-su walks into the light in front of her, she can see him looking to the left across the street. As they walk on, he disappears into the darkness, and as they approach another streetlight, she sees him staring at the ground again as some people pass them by walking in the opposite direction on their side of the street. She realizes he doesn't look anyone in the eye, it's not just her. She wonders if he is just shy.
They walk on for almost an hour before they reach a more active part of the city. There is a rotunda with a lot of traffic, both cars and people. This seems to be where buses pick up and drop off passengers. Yeong-su looks both ways before walking directly towards one of the buses. On the sign it flashes Chinese characters that she can't make out.
Ha-neul walks up to him and asks, "Hey, what are you doing?"
"Getting on the bus," Yeong-su answers.
"But we don't have money," Ha-neul replies.
"I do," Yeong-su says as he takes his shoe off. Hidden under the cushioned sole are some yuan bills folded lengthwise into long strips. He pulls it out and returns his shoe to his foot before proceeding into the bus. Shocked at first, Ha-neul and Hye-jin quickly follow. Just then, Yeong-su speaks Chinese to the bus driver and motions to Ha-neul and Hye-jin, both with their eyebrows raised at this point and their mouths slightly open, dumbstruck. The driver nods and lets the three of them onto the bus.
Ha-neul finds a couple open seats and lets Hye-jin sit next to the window, herself sitting by the aisle. Yeong-su prefers to stand, holding onto the railing hanging from the ceiling of the bus.
"It should be about three hours," Yeong-su says as he stands next to Ha-neul with his head turned forward towards the driver. "So you two get some rest."
"Hey," Ha-neul asks, "Why do you have Chinese money? And since when did you speak Chinese?"
"It's a long story," Yeong-su replies.
"Well, then give me the short version," Ha-neul asks.
"I was a guide," Yeong-su says. "I guided people across the border."
"Oh," Ha-neul replies. "You're so young though, it never occurred to me."
"That's the point," Yeong-su says. Just then he hangs his head again and mutters to himself. "All warfare is based on deception."
"Where is this bus headed then?" Ha-neul asks.
"Dalian," Yeong-su replies. "We're on the overnight bus."
They quickly fall silent as they wait for the overnight bus to get going. By then, Ha-neul and Hye-jin are asleep, with Yeong-su standing by keeping watch. When the bus picks up a few other passengers and finally starts on its journey, Yeong-su finds a seat behind Ha-neul and falls asleep himself.
After a little over three hours the bus arrives in Dalian. It is still dark when Yeong-su wakes up Ha-neul and Hye-jin. They exit the bus and walk towards a park nearby the bus terminal. It is already getting cold this time of year, so they look around for shelter. Hye-jin suddenly darts ahead towards a small building. It turns out to be public restrooms for the park. They decide to spend the remainder of the night there. Ha-neul and Hye-jin sit down by the entrance on the ground leaning against the wall facing the interior of the building, with Yeong-su closest to the entrance leaning against the wall facing the outside.
Before falling asleep, Ha-neul looks at Yeong-su again. He is looking up, perhaps at the full moon. She feels safe with him around. "Guide" fits him well, as his quiet, calm demeanor makes it seem like he knows exactly where he's going, instilling supreme confidence. And yet, sitting there alone in the moonlight, his scrawny figure and his tired looking eyes also seem to convey a profound sadness. She thinks back and realizes that somehow her presence is both a relief and a burden for him. When they talk, he sounds comfortable sharing his mind, and that appears to lighten up his mood. When she tries to make eye contact though, she can feel the pain it causes him as he recoils away. So she decides to give him some space. Trying to be by his side seems too much for him, so perhaps following close behind for now is enough. The three of them fall asleep there, sheltered from the wind.
I used to know a boy like Teong-su. He didn't look anyone in the eye. He grew his bangs long so they covered his eyes so it was harder for other people to try to look him in the eyes.
Ha-neul is a beautiful, kindhearted sixteen-year-old teenager living in North Korea with her rambunctious sister and her loving parents. Threatened by an ambitious school administrator, they are forced to flee the country and search for happiness elsewhere.
Once out of North Korea, they meet Yeong-su, a mysterious teenager whom Ha-neul is immediately attracted to. Together they look for a way to sneak into South Korea and a better life. Will they survive? Will freedom automatically bring happiness? Can you really escape from your past life, or will it catch up to you in the end? Ha-neul seeks to answer these questions as she starts her second life.
This novel has a more serious tone and is not too long, about 78k words, with a lot of life lessons poured into it and a redemptive ending. May it help those who feel discouraged.
NOTE: This is for mature audiences only and deals with mental health issues, please be aware of the warnings from Tapas before reading.
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