Recurring phrases I used from 4th-10th grade.
[CW: Victim's dialogue rationalizing his abuse.]
This is me rationalizing my abusers behavior to not only myself but to others. She was known for her temper by all. People hated her. But not me. By the end of fourth grade, I could see no one else but her. She was misunderstood, needed help and love. I could give that to her. This being my first experience with friendship as close as this, my usefulness to others and alleviating their problems in any way they pleased would have permanently stunting effects on my brains growth.
"Please don't make her mad."
"She wouldn't like you, I cant hang out with you."
"I cant call you, I have to be on call with her."
"We cant play, I have to walk with her."
"She's upset today, Im not really in the mood to talk."
"She's a bit mean but I understand where she comes from."
"You dont understand her like I do."
"We just like to rough house!"
"You dont have to deal with her being angry, dont try to argue with her."
"She doesnt mean it."
"You guys just dont give her a chance!"
"Shes my only friend. I dont need anyone else."
"I didnt want to go without her anyways..."
"She's the only one who protects me."
"Without her, I cant do anything."
"No one likes me like she does."
"I cant live without her."
"I dont know who I would be without her."
"She may lose her temper but she doesnt WANT to hurt me."
"It's my fault."
"Im in love with her."
Warning this might be triggering skip if you can't handle toxic relationships!!!! -----------------------------------------------
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Fuck. This reminds me of my ex justifying their possessiveness and "Harsh love" hitting me when I say I don't want to do something or won't agree with them
"I've climbed this mountain a million times - and died a million more." A short comic about the relationship between a survivor and their abuser. A retelling of a childhood story I wrote.
(Pay little attention to the genres. There's no plot nor characters, just symbolism and a message.)
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Content Warnings:
> While it is not explicitly mentioned or depicted, abuse, trauma and complex PTSD is the major theme of this work. If this will bring up unwanted thoughts, please take care and skip this :)
> Blood
> Injury and death
> VERY light gore
[[ My work is not primarily intended for children as they contain non-sexual mature topics. Please understand that as you proceed and be respectful of my content. :) ]]
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