"Are you fucking serious!??!" Kit flinched at Finnley's angry tone. This was one of the very few times he heard him swear in some way, so he knew this was really serious. "Again!? I know you're busy, but do you.......do you even......"
It was obviously enough for Finnley. His patience has run out. The day before, Kit had to cancel their plans. Again. For the milionth time. And........Finn had enough.
The little pouches of blood Kit carries with him aren't enough anymore. The hungry feeling inside his stomach keeps growing after a few minutes of relief. It was getting harder and harder. Maybe I should......try human blood......that would help..... But the brutal images of the dead people from the news stopped him. I don't want to be...... more of a monster....
The local butcher always gives him a supply of blood. He disquizes himself as a little firm and always orders it online. But the cheap pig's blood was never enough. It it were, it would've stopped the hungry feeling. Or the salivation in his mouth. Or his fangs itching and growing bigger.
Finn got quiet. He leaned onto the kitchen counter. "Every time you......you're with me I........do you have someone else? Is that it....?" He whispered.
"No no no...." Kit's heart hammered in his chest. "That's not it at all, you know how much I love you-"
"DO YOU?!?! EVERY TIME WE.....we decide to do something or just spend time together.....you-you have this tense look on your face the whole time and I........I just........what does it mean Kit? What?" Finnley looked at Kit with so much pain in his eyes, Kit had to look away. Finn continued. "Is it just serious for me? Was I an idiot this whole time? .......tell me what's going on....."
Finn clutched the fabric on his pants and looked at the ground.
"I.....I...." What do I tell him??? Finn's expression from the café. The terror in his eyes. I'm one of them.
Finn grabbed one of his sleeves. "What? What are you so scared of?" Kit saw how much Finn wanted an answer. He saw how much if pains him too. .....how much he loves Kit.
What I'm afraid of....? Seeing Finn's lifeless body. Blood everywhere. The dead look in his beautiful eyes. That it's gonna be entirely and fully his fault.
"....I.....I can't...." Monster. Disgusting. Foul creature. Should never exist. Banish. Burn.
Kit dropped to his knees. "I can't I can't I can't....." He kept saying over and over. He felt like there was still blood inside his mouth, and it started burning.
Kit felt Finn's arms wrapping around his shoulders. "....I love you, and we can........work things out, you know. You know that....." Kit dryly smiled into Finnley's neck. Even though I'm a monster, huh?
Finn continued. "Just tell me." He started rubbing Kit's back.
Silence lingered in the air. Finn didn't say anything else, and just obviously waited for Kit to explain himself.
Kit all of a sudden laughed. Maybe this is supposed to be the moment where it all ends.
Kit feels like he's found his soulmate. The love of his life. But, there's someting he's always been hiding from his lover, Finn. The fact that, despite his sweet personality, when his hungry urges take the lead, he's nothing more than a blood-thirsty animal. A monster, some people would say.
A vampire.
But when Kit thinks about confessing his dark secret to Finnley, fear and anxiety fill his mind. What if he doesn't accept him? What if he's absolutely disgusted with him to the point of never wanting to see him again?
Kit decided that being guilty of this fact is better than losing Finnley forever. But is he capable of hiding it forever? Is Finn getting suspicious of him?
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