*Hi I'm back! I apologize for the sudden little hiatus. Now I'm back and ready to write the rest of the story. Honestly I still struggle to write and all but the fact that is in fact Pride month helps me boost me to write some more. I want this story to be finished for Pride month sense it in fact represents Pride month. For the last few weeks I have been debating myself wether or not I should tell you guys this, sense it is personal after all. I decided that I should so you guys understand a little more why I struggled so much to write the next few parts. Sense this is after all Pride month, I'm announcing to you guys that I am...well I identify as a Demisexual person and I'm still figuring out where I am on the Aromatic spectrum. It's not new to me but it is new for you guys. The characters are basically the same age as me so I struggled to make them have a life that is not similar to my personal life. It kinda made panic to know the next two characters look a lot like me so yeah thanks for bearing with me. I mentioned a few weeks ago that I'll announce to you guys when it is my exam week, we'll beginning from tomorrow June 13th to June 20th will be my exam week. Therefore I apologize for the lack of updates and as well for what's to come. Now you may enjoy!*

"Did you see the new anime show?!" "Um no?" "Aw that's too bad. I really thought you did. I guess you won't understand if I talked about that show right?" "Yeah.." I shove lightly my friend. "Relax cheer up! You can watch it tonight and besides I'm not mad you know. I know you'd rather snap photos of me all day long." She chuckles. "How do you know that much?" "That's what we call being best friends." "Ok" "Let's go Chemistry class is gonna start in five we have to go to our locker." We walk towards our lockers. While walking we pass Mason. Let's just say the last few days have been rather weird? Olivia and I started talking to Mason one of the jocks at school. Even if we're not friends I've noticed that he seems a bit down? Yeah he seems to not be able to sleep enough. We officially met him 2 days ago, on Wednesday. Now it's Friday, I don't want to pry but I really wonder what's going on under that facade. He doesn't seem that happy. Something's bothering him but I can't pit point what it is. Anyways it's not like it matters to me. I have way bigger matters to deal with then try to understand one of the jocks in school, well not big matters but that's besides the point. After a few minutes the bell rings. I enter class with Olivia. Once I enter I notice my other friend Ben sitting in the back of class. Just looking at the class in large feels quite of weird. In front of the class I notice Charlie with his friend Kilan chatting. Not far off I notice Joshua bothering Ethan and Mason. I notice that Grace is absent today, huh how strange. The school president is in my class she's chatting with a few notable people like Emery. Mason is not in my class, how boring. I wanted to see if he was okay. I saw him the other day with William. Honestly I have a gut feeling something is going on between those two. Call it gaydar. Not to be judgy but I think William is gay. Well he surely looks like it. The way he looks at Mason says it all. I go sit down with my best friend Ben and Olivia sits next to me. "Hey" "Hey" "Stayed all night watching anime?" Ben says teasing me. "No, I don't always to do you know." Well my friends know me as the- Wait I haven't introduced myself yet. I'm Abigail Lambert, a anime lover and cinema as well. That boy next to me is my childhood best friend Ben. Olivia is my other best friend. Even if I have a close friendship with Ben it always feels like there is more to it. I don't know if it's the fact that I known him for basically my whole life that makes me feel like I fully trust him but I don't know it's something else. When I was younger I knew I was different then the others. While girls talked about boys, boys talked about girls, I just didn't you know. My parents told me it's because I was too young to understand what love is, honestly I don't believe them. I thought at first I liked girls but later on realized is wasn't it. I was already in 6th grade and I still didn't have crushes on boys. I didn't understand what was wrong with me back then. Like seriously boys are suppose to be attractive right? If I didn't like girls that way not guys that way then what was I. The only thing I knew is that I had a close bond with Ben but I never saw him that way you know. Well until recently. I never liked anyone before. Nope I can't even tell if a guy is hot because I always see them as just plain guys. Even the most pretty guys in the world weren't appealing to me. Two years ago I leaned the term Asexual existed then I learned the term Aromantic. I thought those things applied to me. But lately it has been kinda weird. It feels different whenever I'm with Ben. I don't feel the same way. It's not like I imagine him kissing me or anything no it's just I kinda want to be closer to him. I don't know if that's possible to be closer to him when I already am but sometimes I wish we could be hugging each other. Ben is really special to me you know. He's not a brother to me but seeing him as something else then just a friend is weird honestly. I don't want to try to kiss him or anything as I fear it'll ruin our friendship. I know that he's apart of the LGBTQIA2+ community, I don't know what trough but I know he still likes girls. He knows about my sexuality. Well we basically know everything about each other. Honestly I'd rather get rid of those feelings. I thought that having no feelings for anyone was quite pleasing honestly. I liked that but now that I long to be something more with Ben it feels..weird. Oh well I can't really do anything about it can I?

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Class is already over. I'm in the school's lobby with Ben and Olivia. While we do so Ben talks about his upcoming dance competition. I never miss one of those. "And yeah it's gonna be crazy." "Sure it must be." While we continue talking we don't notice two persons approaching our table. "Hey I hope we're not bothering you guys?" "Oh no you're not, wait Mason? William? What are you guys doing here?" "Don't you have other friends to be with..?" He chuckles slightly before resuming to talk. "Oh no we wanted to talk to you guys." "Hi, it seems like you guys already know me.." "Yeah oh well I do mostly but yeah Olivia and Abigail know you too." Ben already did shows with William. As William likes to appear in musical shows as an actor and Ben appears as one of the dancers. I already know about him because Ben loves to talk about his dance routines. "Oh ok." William stands still slightly shy. Aw how cute he's all shy. I smile slightly as I notice that he's indeed with Mason. "Uh well is alright if we start eating with you guys?" "Yeah but Mason why do you want to hang with us? We're just a bunch of outcast?" "Woah there that's not true, besides I met Olivia and Abigail the other day and it seemed like William already knew you." "Ah ok." They sit down with us. It's kind of awkward to be honest. Mason one of the school jocks sitting down with us? I must be in a dream right now! That looks so much like one of the anime's I watched the other day. I swear there's something going on between those two boys. Like seriously Mason still hasn't mentioned why he's with William. They continue to talk for a bit before the school bell rings. They left us to go to their respective class. Olivia leaves for her class. It's only me and Ben now. Awkward.. "Hey we have to go now, or else we'll be late for class." I chuckle nervously. "Yeah you're right." He looks back at me to see why I am all nervous but he retracts his gaze as soon as he my face, weird. We walk together to our class. It was real awkward because it was silent all the way to our walk to our class. Normally silence between us doesn't feel uncomfortable no maybe more refreshing? Now is surely isn't the case. Is there something he's not telling me?

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Yup it's Monday now and it still feels real awkward when I'm with Ben. This is so weird. Why is acting all shy all of sudden. He's always goofy around me. Now he isn't anymore. He still acts like his usual self with Olivia tho so I truly don't understand. Another thing that's weird is that apparently we're officially friends with William and Mason? I swear there's something going on between those two but they refuse to tell us. What is Mason scared to say he's gay? As if that would bother me I fully support the LGBTQIA2+ community. Sometimes I wish there was more people in the community present in my school but eh my school is kinda homophobic so, yeah. I wouldn't be surprised if they are indeed Transphobic too. I mean they are because they still treat Camilla as if she's alien. Can't they see that there action and words hurt? We're suppose to be in the 21st century and still our school remains homophobic. Wow, it's kinda sad really. Sometimes I think that there's a lot more gay people and whatnot but they refuse to show it or to say they are. I mean in the last few days, I learned that Mason and William might be apart of the community, there's me and my friends, there's Camilla, that is in some of my classes but that's it. I heard some rumors that Emery is screwing with girls but I don't want to believe that unless she says it herself. That would be crazy trough. The school's soccer star Emery is gay or Bi! Kind of nuts to think that it might be possible. Some people could be part of the community and I might not even know because I'm not friends with them. Ok seriously I have to stop thinking about that. I think I should focus on what's going on between Ben and I. It's already the Middle of May and I know that Ben is working on the School play. Turns out he'll be apart of it. Seriously it kinda sucks to see that my friends are good at such good things but you have me here an anime addict and cinema lover. Like seriously how did I even manage to be friends with him? I became friends with him way before he even started dancing seriously. I didn't like animes back then. I mean I didn't know what it was. I stared watching animes when I was 12 so almost 4 years ago. While he started dancing as a pro when he was only 5. I actually known him since we were 2. Back then he was my next door neighbor so my parents and his parents got along quite well. So that's how we became friends. I still remember the meltdown I had when they announced they would move two streets from him. It was so bad that I thought I would lose him. My parents treat him like family but I don't. You see what I mean? Now that I think about it, it kinda was painful when he had crushes on other people. I think it was worse when he actually dated his now ex, Sarah Littlewood. Kind of awkward because that's William older sister. Wow we really are all connected in some kind of twisted way. I remember when he told me that he was dating her how much it hurt me. I thought it was because I was losing my best friend but now that I think about it, maybe I was jealous? Oh wow I really have lots of reflexion to do.

*New cover art for this story! Now that it is pride month I can share this new cover art with you guys. I'm sure you guys already noticed it but still here it is.

Yeah it's made by me. Fun fact the old one was made in only 30 minutes while this took a few hours to make. Hope you enjoy the new cover art!*