Ever since I was a very young child, and I understood what love for a person was, I always experienced a little twinge in my chest when I came to like someone.
And no, it wasn't butterflies or an avalanche of elephants. It was the sad reality that hit me when I saw myself in the mirror and started shopping myself with others.
Julie was as beautiful as the rich sensation of a desired embrace. But the boys around her looked different than me.
What can I say about myself, I don't have anything special that she would like. I'm tall, taller than average for my age, but I always go unnoticed in the hallway.
My hair reaches down to my shoulders, but it wasn't so visible that the principal would have me cut it.
I liked to wear white when I felt sad, but no one noticed. Or black when my pink clothes were dirty.
I liked rock music, but I couldn't play an instrument. I didn't even remember the authors of the songs I listened to, I just liked it, and that was more than enough.
I had two friends, but I never became best friends with anyone.
I had two parents who loved me, but I always felt empty.
So who am I really, is there something you will come to like about me?
Or maybe I should love myself first to love others?
Thank you so much for reading.
I haven't seen them in person, but they look amazing today.
Nathaniel is an insecure boy who falls madly in love with Julie.
Unknowingly, they become involved in an unhealthy relationship, due to the toxicity of both of them. Unstable, young and immature.
Julie was different, Nathaniel knew it from the first time he saw her, but he never thought that her lack of sanity would reach the point of taking her own life.
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