Sometimes, when you want to find something, you do all you can. I lost my dad's keys once, and I turned the house upside down just to find them, even though the place they were in was easy to reach. Now, I'm going as far as I can to work out what's with the Cillian human. Maybe I'm going a little mad, but I'm a King, and if something that can compromise our secret existance comes up, it's got to be dealt with, before everyone gets stressed over it. I have a feeling the 16 Night People of this town are already stressed over it. They really should have said something. I'm might not have freaked out if the told me.

I wait outside the office. I'm meant to be in form, but I was sent to collect a transfer student. What idiot what transfer on a Thursday? Why not a Monday, where you get a whole entire week? Well, it's not my choice, I shouldn't moan.

The student should have arrived 1 minute ago - I don't have much patience and don't want to be here all day. I feel ready to walk away, but I hear talking and the door to enter buzz open. Miss Darren, head of office, walks out accompanied by a tall student in jeans and a shirt. Proper button-up shirt. I haven't worn one of those since secondary. 

"Cillian, this is Nicholas. Nicholas, I would like you to meet Cillian. He will be your... sort of guide today. You're both taking the same degree, so you'll have the same timetable. Enjoy your first day, Nicholas." Miss Darren intorduce us to each other.

Nicholas seemed an OK person. He wasn't one of those shady kids, at looked pretty sophisticated. He wouldn't annoy me, but I didn't think we'd be friends. I was one of the popular kids. He'd be in with the class aces. We'd probably forget each other's existences by the new week.

"Hi." he says, catching me off guard. I didn't think he was going to talk.

"Um, hello," I don't like talking with strangers. I want to be in silence again.

"We should go to the first lesson. Form's just ended. I'll lead you to the classroom." I say. I don't want us to talk while we walk there. I'm not comfortable around most people.

I can't help but notice how different he looks. He's nothing like the smart-looking people I know. They wear school-like trousers. Nicholas is in tight fitting jeans. His long sleeved, button-up shirt isn't tucked in. His hair is jet black, and alothough slightly messy, compliments his smartness. He doesn't wear glasses and his eyes are green. His shoes are polished brown boots. I've never notcied this much of a person before.

He's much different than me. I wear jeans, but they don't stick to my legs. I wear a t-shirt, it's tucked in, but it's just an old MCR concert shirt. My shoes are just my black chelsea boots. It's nothing special. But he looks special. 

We finally reach the classroom, but I still don't escape him. The computer-room classroom is set up in rows. You can't sit on the sides. The rows of seats and computers are all at different levels. It looks more like a lecture room. I do think it's actually an old lecture room. Nicholas isn't sat next to me, but in front of me, which turns out to be worse. It means I'm staring at the back of his head for an entire hour.

Something seems off about Cillian today. He's... lost. I grab his hand and stare into his eyes.

"Are you alright?" I ask.

"I don't know. I think something's wrong, but I don't know what." Well, what a uselful explanation. I have no answer.

"Oh."

I lead him on a walk around the field. I don't know if it clears his head, but he begins to talk more freely.

"There's something about the new transfer student I just don't get. He's... different."

"He seems pretty normal to me." I reply, and it's true. There's nothing strange about him. He just seems like a casual guy. Cillian goes back to a thinking state. I stop our walking and move so we're face to face. I reach up to kiss him, but he pulls away.

"Sorry, Jinny, but I'm just not in the right mood at the moment."

He's not okay.

I take a tighter grip on his hand and continue to walk us back towards the buildings.

I log into my laptop and open up Google. I'm worried for Cillian, and search a couple things:

- How do I know if my boyfriend is OK?

- Signs my boyfriend doesn't love me?

- Why might my boyfriend not be OK?

- Signs of a break-up?

I get mostly clear results for them.

- Pressure issues

- Stress

That's the first one.

Second:

- Distancing

- Pulling away

Third:

- Pressure issues (again)

- Stress (again)

Fourth: 

- Keeping away

- Different behaviour

There's one result from the third one that catches my eye:

- Sexual orientation realisation

I think about it. Could it be that Cillian might not actually be straight?

Maybe I should ask him, and if he hasn't realised it, it could be that asking him makes him realise it. 

It be good to know if he's straight ot not, even if he's not sure. It's best he knows and has someone to help him through it. If I'm not the one for him, I shouldn't be stopping him from finding the right genders.