Do you ever feel like a lot is going on when it's only been a day? Well that's how I feel. I only won my my first gold medal just yesterday but sometimes it feels like that happened one week ago. One of the reasons or maybe person that is responsable for this is who else than.. Enzo. Yesterday was a blast. I'm glad we talked about our relationship as friends and uhh.. our sexualities. Never tought I was ever gonna be talking about that with Enzo. Yes it still weird to say he's my friend knowing that only a few days ago I saw him as my rival. If there's one thing I learned recently is that Never judge a book by it's cover. I judged the guy without knowing who he really was. I mean I understand why I viewed him as my rival before because that's what he's suppose to be but most olympians are actually friends with their suppose rival. I like being around Enzo but I don't know... I have to think about how I feel about him. It's complicated, I like Enzo's company but he's the biggest known olympian in our generation and my suppose rival. I always dreamt about becoming an olympian but I always told myself that I was only gonna be there only to win or have fun not to have friends such as Enzo Buckley. I guess I was wrong about that. There's something I don't like to admit but I find Enzo very handsome, extremely kind and fun to be with. I know It's weird but I mind have started to have a crush towards him. I'll never tell him that since well he's straight as a feather for me at least. Last night I kinda lied to him about not liking him at all that way. It's true that I didn't like him that way last night but I came to a resolution that I might have some feelings for him. After dreaming about him last night it was clear that I had thinking to do. I will never tell him that because we might never see each other only if it's during the olympics but I doubt he would still like to hang out with me after 4 years. He's also dating Neveah Steward who's an actress trough I'm quite shock he hasn't talked about her yet maybe it's because he doesn't want to make me unconfortable. Today it's the last day in the olympics so I will come back home tonight. I probably won't see him again for an other 4 years or that is if I even make the olympics ever again. He'll surely be in the 2024 Auckland Olympics but for me it remains unsure. So today I have half the day free and I have to answer questions for interviews since well I'm kinda famous even trough I hate to admit it. After that the Spanish team will be leaving tonight around 6pm EST. The flight is about 8 hours long so we will arrive at 8am CEST in my hometown in Spain. I'll be sleeping during the flight but yeah that's how my last day in the olympics will look like. 

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It's currently 10 am and Enzo just came to tell me we were gonna spend the free time together. I don't how I feel about that. Doesn't he have other people than me to spend time with like maybe Jessica perhaps? Even trough It's maybe the last time I might ever see him I think he has the intention to continue to stay in touch with me because he just asked me for my contacts. I'll have to get used to it. He's leaving tommorow because he's in the same country as the olympics this year. Apparently me and Enzo will be walking in the olympic village and hang out in the lobby. I'm okay with that. 

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It's currently 5pm and I'm eating at my table for the last time with the olympians from Spain. It feels weird to sit there for the last time. I have grown attached to eating with Spanish olympians. Besides that I had fun with Enzo. Now I'm not so sure anymore if I want to never see him again. I like being around him and maybe but just maybe want to get to know him more. I don't know if that'll happen since we have an ocean separating us. That's how far it is between where he lives and where I live. Besides He has his lovely girlfriend and family. Ok I might be getting jealous or maybe not. We'll both be occupied with fame. I got a couple of offers already this morning to attend some shows and interviews. Cool isn't it? But I'm quite scared I don't want to be followed everywhere I go.. plus with what Enzo told me doesn't help about the fact of being followed everywhere. I guess I should of have seen that one coming since i'm basically on top on the world because I made the olympics, the highest level you can be at. I just finished eating so I have to go get prepared to answer questions from the media. 

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I won't tell what they asked me because It's personal at least for me but I sure had to answer a lot of questions about Enzo's relationship with me. Of course I had to deny every questions because we made it clear that our friendship should remain a secret. If Enzo wants to tell somebody or I want to tell somebody than we have to call to call one other to make sure if it's okay. It's currently time to say goodbye to everybody. I hug Estaban who's the one I been closest to beside Enzo. Now I have to say goodbye to Mr Buckley. Obviously he went to see me at my hotel room when I was packing my last things to tell me goodbye because we can't do it in front of everyone. It's awkward but he decides to hug him and I hug him back. It feels great to be in Enzo's arms. I feel at ease and it seems to be the same for the latter. We break the hug and tell each other goodbye. We leave my hotel room on the same time but he goes to his hotel room and I go towards the direction of my bus.  I went to give my pass for my hotel room and I head outside. It feels overwhelming. This is the last time I will ever see this place. I feel like crying but I block myself from letting that happen. I enter the bus. There's some people that put my bags back in the bus. I sit on my passenger place and I look outside. I admit I will miss Enzo a lot more than I originally thought but that's life. I will miss this place since this is the place where I competed in the olympics for the very first time, I won my first ever medal a gold one and it's where I met Enzo.... Buckley. The bus starts to move and I look towards the buildings one last time. The olympians and I eventually arrive at the airport and enter the plane that will bring us back home where our journey as an athlete began.