That contradiction also surprised me. My heart is always in turmoil, standing still.

 Later, I discovered that the more I hid, the more my cousin thought it was a shameful expression of young girls. So my cousin came to visit more and more often, even staying in my house, going in and out every day in the small attic. Even the heartless servants in the house can see everything, sometimes they whistle meaningfully.

 I sat in the room, hands on my chin, staring blankly at my face in the mirror.

 The little girl Lan Lan ran in, covered her mouth with her hand and smiled as she reported "Miss, the young master said he had something to say to the lady, and the young master invited you to come downstairs".

 "You keep saying I'm sick." I reacted immediately, reaching up to hug my feverish chest. I think I'm really sick.

The next day, Lan Lan said to me again, "Miss, the young master asked if you have recovered from your illness. The young master said that he had learned a little medicine, and could more or less visit the lady's illness."

 After saying that, she smiled at me and said, "Do you need to invite the young master upstairs to take your pulse?".

 I look at Lan Lan, this maid is only fourteen or fifteen years old, not yet fully grown, how can she think so mischievously? I pretended to be angry and pushed her out of the room.

 A few days passed, Lan Lan ran into the room again and said to me, "Younger cousin, I have something to enjoy with my cousin, I hope younger cousin will come downstairs to see it. I misses and hurts so much can't distinguish night and day. Only younger cousin can help relieve the stupid cousin. I beg you to think of the old age of Nguyet Lao, hurry downstairs..."

This little servant girl, after becoming familiar with me, became very casual, she even dared to imitate the gesture of my cousin, shaking his head with his eyes, holding a paper fan bravely pacing around, even his voice mimics. The next few sentences were intentionally added to tease me!

 I laughed, ran over and punched the baby.

 Cousin has something he want me to see? I tried to think, sitting in front of the mirror, cheeks red. The urge to go downstairs was urging, rising in me.

 I changed into the clothes I used to wear in the spring when I was a young girl, slowly sat down in front of the mirror, put on lipstick, carefully combed my hair, and put a brooch on the braid. right hair. I felt sorry for the face in the mirror but then smiled again, remember not long ago, he himself once praised me for having such a stunning beauty.

 The little girl, Lan Lan, is really mischievous! Seeing me sitting in the mirror combing my hair, she stood behind me constantly putting his hand up to cover his mouth and smile. I rolled my eyes at her and then smiled shyly.

 Gently walking down the stairs, I immediately saw my cousin.

 He quickly walked over to me. I felt in his every step a close, close affection. I knew he was looking at me, I dared not look up at him.

Cousin said, let's take a little walk in the peach garden. I nodded slowly, obediently following behind.

 I followed his steady steps, trying to keep my emotions under control and my racing heart.

 Cousin suddenly turned around, carefully pulling out a handkerchief from his sleeve. To my astonishment, it was the handkerchief that I had dropped four years ago in front of him. An ordinary silk scarf with simple embroidery, neither precious nor special, yet cousin still preserves it to this day.

 He gently placed the handkerchief on his palm and unfolded it. The towel is still as clean as it was four years ago. I was so surprised that I couldn't say a word, just stood there staring at my cousin.

 The four sides suddenly became extremely quiet.

 Rays of light as thin as dragonfly wings shone on the handkerchief, transparent, sparkling. My cousin carefully held the towel, I remembered the scene four years ago, he hastily grasped the towel in his hand, making me feel lost.

 Now, I'm much older, my cousin is an adult. After four years of separation, we are now standing together again, looking into each other's eyes, we can both read in each other's eyes the feelings of love for each other.

 “I always carry it with me.” My cousin's voice is warm and gentle, I can feel in the wind the scent of peach blossom and the scent emanating from that mature man. I was mesmerized by all of that.

 I started to feel insecure, I looked into the distance, pretending to be watching the scenery or thinking about something.  In fact, during that time, I couldn't see anything and couldn't think at all, the scene before my eyes became blurred, and my mind was as clear as silk.

 “Younger cousin, this handkerchief, will you give it to me too?” My cousin gave me a ravishing smile, and I nodded stupidly. In my heart, even my heart, he has monopolized for the past four years.

"Actually, I've always thought of you." His cousin's voice was now hoarse and deep. He suddenly grabbed my hand, his hands were as big and strong as I had imagined. But when he held my hand, it was very gentle and warm.

 "Cousin..." My cousin's sudden action was beyond my expectations, I was startled for a moment, and instinctively pulled my hand away.

 My cousin didn't let me do what I wanted. His hands grip mine tighter, I am now like the towel he held in his hand four years ago, unable to resist.

 My cousin gently pulled my hand, I couldn't stand and fell on his lap.

 Cousin held me in his arms. His arms were like steel pincers, holding me tightly, I didn't dare to move, letting my body be enveloped by that warm and pure male scent.