Midweek, I crashed hard. It's been a while since I felt so dark, so quickly. A lot of things came at me all at once but the main thing was coming under fire from people I thought cared the very most about me.
I had exposed a very tender side of myself and they responded by completely disowning me as a loved one. It was as if they could not see me at all, didn't understand the identity we had spent 20 years building between us. Every sacrifice, every gesture of love, harmony and understanding... totally gone.
I've been told I should surround myself with people who will celebrate who I am without condition. Still. It hurts when what you thought was unconditional love is suddenly ripped away.
I can't say I understand what you must be going through, but it sounds so terrible. I can't imagine the pain of loosing someone you love this way, and it's your brother no less! My heart goes out to you Jan.
We couldn't possibly compare, but you still have us, we'll always be there for you <3
Welcome to my personal sketchbook! These are all drawings, sketches and paintings done in traditional art, ranging from the very recent to half a decade old.. so cut me some slack! haha
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