The dawn light of a human fell in love,

those beautiful grey eyes had nothing but a glow,

The fire of love was hidden inside her,

The price was dear as she abandoned him.

P. F. CANYUL

He had returned, I could feel that presence, the nausea was back, that disgusting stench and to top it all off, that suffocating and terrifying heat that flooded the room.

They always came back, I prayed to God that he would leave soon and I held my breath as I felt him approaching my bed, a sinister laughter began to occupy every corner of the room it was as if time had stopped suddenly without warning the blanket down to my waist was at my side, I began to feel his tongue disgusting and sticky in my hair, with all my strength I struggled to keep my eyes closed I felt I would faint at any second.

In my head I could only repeat ''Yulianne stay calm, he will leave soon''. I also begged for my father to open the door.

I wanted someone to save me from all this, every birthday they would come, a different creature every time. sometimes they would appear in a group, as if it was a ritual to remind me that they would be here.

I COULDN'T BREATHE! I DIDN'T WANT TO OPEN MY EYES! YOU HAVE TO IGNORE IT, I KEPT REPEATING OVER AND OVER AGAIN, BUT I WAS SCARED AND I COULD FEEL THE TERROR RISING IN MY THROAT.

Without warning something very sharp and hot, as if it was a knife on fire went through my arm running from the elbow to the palm of my hand, the pain was so unbearable that I was about to scream, the only thing I could do was to bite my tongue so hard that I felt the coppery taste of blood.

  - You know it's useless to pretend to be asleep, don't you?  - he said, in a voice so sinister that it made every inch of my skin crawl.

It was as if several voices were speaking at the same time, but I could clearly understand as if one of those thousand voices was shouting louder than the others.

My eyes remained closed.

  - Please, God, someone listen to me.  - I pleaded in my mind.

  - Please I beg someone to help me, I don't think I can take this any longer. - 

A moment later, I could feel that presence leaving. Only a whisper of voices remained in the room.

  - I'll be back soon. - They said over and over again, the heat and heaviness disappeared, but that nauseating stench as if something rotten was in my room remained.

I was so terrified that I didn't move a single muscle for 60 minutes, when I felt that I was really alone, with the little strength I had, I rushed to get up I was breathing heavily, suddenly I felt the nausea coming and ran to the bathroom, dropping my head in the toilet I threw up the little I had managed to eat, I couldn't stop the retching, it came one after another, to the point that I felt pain in my chest and that my lungs would collapse.

The tears started to fall uncontrollably, I was so scared, so tired of being afraid, that fear was already part of my life, it was so terrifying that I wanted to cut my skin and get it out, I didn't want to feel it anymore, why couldn't I change it, I asked myself every day, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I couldn't stop being alert, I couldn't stop feeling that my life was miserable, it was so pitiful that I couldn't even stop crying....