(This is a snippet I wrote a long while ago after an event happened in the roleplay I am. Tech and Marco (in disguise) went out dancing with the others and her fiance didn't recognise Marco which lead to some angsty stuff. This occurs after that when Marco has a panic/anxiety attack. I don't have personal experience with an anxiety attack but some close friends of mine have so I'm sorry if this offends people or not. I wrote this for fun for my two roleplay buddies and posted it here for fun)
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“Why do I always ruin everything?”
These words came from the younger twin’s mouth as he delved deeper into his anxiety attack. Tech was hugging her brother, trying to comfort him in an attempt to stop his shaking. The sentence brought a gasp from her as she then hugged him tighter. “You know that’s not true! Why would you ever say that?” She exclaimed.
Marco looked up into his sister's worried eyes. “Because of me, you might have been single right now.” He states, dropping his head again. Tech rolled her eyes. “But we managed to sort that out. You’re not to blame ok?” Marco stayed silent before muttering something under his breath, his shaking growing worse.
“I have the worst of luck... It ruins everything, my life, yours and Cat’s, our parents.... I should’ve gone somewhere else so I didn’t ruin everyone’s lives... Maybe then I’d only bring my bad karma on me...”
Tech’s eyes widened at his depressed sentence. “Now that is utter bull crap and you know it.” She said furiously. Marco ignored her as he continued his internal spiral. Tech pursed her lips in thought as she thought of what to say that could help. Her eyes lit up as she realised what to say.
”Actually, with all things considered, I’d say we’re pretty lucky.” She said. Marco faced her again with anger glinting in his eyes. “What the heck do you mean we’re lucky?! We got cursed with our ancestor’s powers, you got cancer after disappearing for a year and a missing kidney which got eaten by a parasitic ALIEN, you got KIDNAPPED, I almost DIED, our parents are DEAD and Catarina was too! We ended up in another fricken UNIVERSE, got turned into actual ROBOTS, you were left by yourself with an actual DEMON while I was being experimented on for almost 10 YEARS!! We had no one to call for help! NO ONE!!!” Marco shouted in rage, shocking the girl into silence. He took a deep breath before talking again. “We’re orphans Tech, tortured beyond our own humanity. We’ve lost everyone in our family besides Cat. How on earth can you say that we’re lucky?” He asked in disbelief.
An uneasy silence filled the room as Tech tried to regather her thoughts. Taking a deep breath, she spoke out loud. “Well when you put it like that, yeah. We’ve had very, very bad luck in parts of our history. But somehow, we all survived it all. Didn’t we?” Marco took a moment to think about it. He never considered that ‘being alive’ was good luck. Before he could continue pondering, his sister talked again. “Think about all those other au’s we’ve witnessed. The ice age one, the ‘Evil’ ones, the ones that we will not even mention by name.” Tech gave a small shudder before continuing. “You see, those all could have been our reality Marco. You and Cat are practically dead in all of them and I’m not doing so well in them either. Do you remember that reality where I enslaved the universe?” She asked, gaining a nod from Marco. “That almost happened you know. If I was focusing more on the revenge I wanted instead of trying to find a place to sleep, that would have been me. I was... less empathetic back then.” Tech admitted.
Marco‘s breath hitched at the thought. The idea that his heroic, good and compassionate sister was so close to snapping scared him deeply. He never realised what she truly went through while she was alone. “I... I didn’t realise-“ “It’s okay.” She interrupted, a small smile on her lips. “You want to know why?” Marco nodded in response, a small spark of hope in his chest. “It’s because I then met Lucky and Carina.” Tech said. “And then later on, so many other people to call family. You then came back, we revived Catarina, we have a home, not just a house, a home. We have a happy life now, surrounded by the people we love. Compared to those other realities, I’d say we’re pretty lucky.” Tech repeated her comment from earlier.
Marco looked at his twin in awe, wondering how she became so much smarter since they were younger. Letting his head drop, he gave a small chuckle before looking back at her.
"Yeah, I guess we are." He agreed.
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