I ended up ignoring the hyped wolf inside of me. We sat a while on the log while the day fated. Then Finn nudged against me. I looked at him. “Should we go back?” I nodded. We brought the blankets back in the hut. “Meo?” He asked, before we went out. I looked at him. “Was this what messed up your mind the whole day, or is there something else still?” I sighed. I totally forgot to tell him. “I was worried.” “Why though?” he asked. “Because what happened this morning?” “Did you worry about me? Where you afraid of me after this?” I shook my head. “No it's not because of you directly. It's because I’m worried that any consequences will come to you because you beat this guy.” He nodded. “I see”. I sunk my head and stepped out of the cabin. Finn followed me, closed the hut behind him. I didn't look back. I trusted Finn to follow me. I shifted into my Wolf and ran in a slow pace in front of him. I didn't have to look back at him. I felt my fox following me. My fox. When did I start thinking of him as MY fox? Well my wolf didn’t want to get it else. He was sure Finn was my destined mate. But it couldn´t be. He's a fox and even a beta and I got Nesoto as my fated mate. My wolf was sure with this as well. I was sure I just needed time to figure it all out since Nesoto was now on college and with this out of my direct view. My wolf must be distracted cause of the suddenly missing of my mate and my human feelings for Finn. Oh how dumb I was back then just not trusting my wolf. He knew the truth about me and Finn way earlier. Sometimes animals are just the better humans.

After a long time with our slow pace running we came back to the point where we laid down our clothing and school stuff. We shifted into our human forms, put back our clothes on and packed up our stuff, or better said Finn grabbed most of my stuff like he ever did. I sighed since there was no point to arguing about it. He gave me a halfhearted smile. I saw his pain about his failed approach. But what could I have done?

We got back home where my brother picked us up at the door. “Where were you two?” He asked. I tended my head. “We were in the woods like every day?” I asked confused. Now my brother sighed. “Come inside”. We did as we called. “What’s up?” I asked curious. He sighed again. “It's because of mom,” he answered, not explaining pretty much, but I got it. “Where is she?” “In her room” I nodded and got straight to the room of my mom, where she laid in bed in her wolf form crying in silence. I looked at her, took a move and shifted. Laid down beside her. Shove my snout in her fur. I just laid there next to the white wolf my mom was, still is, don't worry she's still alive. It took like an eternity until she took up her head and comforted me a little. I knew what she wanted. I jumped down the bed, shifted into my human form and pulled the blanket above her before mom shifted back as well. “You want anything?” I asked softly. She just shook her head. I sighed quietly before I left the room. Jason and Finn waited in the kitchen talking. Their heads turned to me, when they noticed me. “How’s mom?” Jason asked. I just shook my head. He nodded and grabbed the kettle to heat water. He made a tea from fresh dried leaves for mom and brought it inside her room. Finn didn't say a word till we were alone. “Wanna eat something?” he asked softly, I nodded. So we got to cook together. My brother came back and started helping us silent. I sat the table for three persons since we all knew mom wouldn’t come out of this room tonight anymore. Jason brought a plate food to her even if we knew it would stay untouched. We were happy whenever she even drank her tea. The loss of a mate is something very curious. Normally wolf mates stay together till the very end. If one dies the other follows short after. But in rare cases like the one of my mom or Finn's mom the mate just leaves out of nowhere and just disappears. Not everyone can stand this broken heart. Our moms are or where strong. My mom still lives for us. Finn's mom at least lived till her son was old enough to live on his own.

We sat down at the table, grabbed some food and ate silent. Days like this were hard. But at least we were always able to show our mom we still needed her. Jason and I had this silent deal. I shove into her bed when she was too deep in thoughts to shift back and stayed until she shifted back and he did the rest. 

After the eating we cleaned the kitchen, then I greeted my brother good night and got up the stairs with Finn.

When we got to my room I got inside. He kept standing at the doorstep unsure to enter. I looked at him. “Come inside already!” so he did. I changed into my pajamas and hopped into bed. Finn now stood inside my room, still unsure what to do. “Need an extra invitation?” I asked him. He smiled at me with a relieved smile, changed as well and shove himself inside my bed. “I´m sorry. I didn´t know if you still wanted me inside your bed” he whispered. I smiled, turned to him and caress his cheek. “Nothing changed Finn. I still want you at my side as long as you can handle it. You know I´m not ready for a relationship right now. Even if we would say just live the life as long as we are young, since I my mate for sure does the same.” “I know; I should have waited. I just got overwhelmed.” I nodded. “It's fine now. Don't think too much about it”. He nodded as well. I smiled a last time, pecked his cheek, then turned around again to sleep inside his arm like every night. I felt his little peck on my hair like he did every evening. I smiled, cuddled up a little more, then I sunk into the sweet sleep.