"Yes I know that no one ever wants something to happen to me. But what if I'm stupid enough to get an abusive boyfriend. Or you feel the need to punch him, cause of your own problems with guys. For all I know my luck could be worse than yours. I could fall for a guy who is gay. Now don't get me wrong I don't have anything against liking other guys. But I would rather not have a like awkward relationship with someone cause I like them, and would want them to be with me, while they would rather be with someone else. To me it's easier to be against relationships, then to have to worry about carelessly falling in love. And if my luck with guys is worse than yours, who knows. I could end up kidnapped cause I said I wanted to break up. Or end up in human trafficking cause I thought they were great and all they wanted was my body." I'm not trying to be rude or disrespectful, but I would rather not worry about all the bad things that could potentially happen. 

"If someone wanted to sell you, or kidnap you, that wouldn't be hard. Haven't you heard about the people in Oakland that died over the summer cause of some weird serial killer. I heard from my cousin who lives there that all the bodies they found had all the sex organs taken out and put in a box. She said that the victims died of blood loss, and strangulation as the main causes. Said it was horrible. And apparently the victims had either been sluts, rapists, or players. I think she said that on the box with the organs was a note. She wouldn't tell me what it said. But apparently they haven't caught the guy yet. There was 12 deaths from him over the summer, they were found every Sunday. And when the police decided to enforce a curfew, and that parents are not allowed to let their children leave, the deaths almost stopped. She hasn't said anything more to me about it. So, I don't know if there has been more bodies since the middle of august, but I hope they aren't as frequent." Jane seemed kinda shaken about that. I remember her telling me that her cousin was apart of the police and investigation team in Oakland, but I don't remember much else. 

"Maybe we should start heading home. I really hope that she is ok." I haven't heard anything from her about a marriage so I'm guessing her cousin doesn't have a husband. 

"She is, the entire team that goes searching are primarily single. I talked to her about a month ago, apparently she found a guy she liked. But she couldn't say too much cause she was at work. And I wouldn't be surprised if she had a hot mafia boss boyfriend. She has always been into bad boys, and despite being in the department, she still hasn't found one she likes." Jane looked at me, she had a smile. She looked down at her phone than looked back up.  "Maybe that's cause none of those bad boys are good enough for her. Anyway, I think its time we head back. It gets dark so easily and its hard enough to drive with the snow."

"Yeah, I agree." We finished our food, and head to the car. "Hey Lilie, just so you know if you did get a boyfriend that kidnapped you, I wouldn't stop looking for you. I'd probably get my sister involved, and definitely the police. And I hope that you don't get hurt. But really if worse came to worse, please don't kill yourself. I've heard of quite a few kidnappers from my sister who's victims killed themselves. I remember her telling me about one that she interrogated for the death of a girl. I don't think she was much older than we are now, but when my sister was asking him who killed her. He said it was her, he had chose to turn himself in. Said something about falling in love with her, and that she didn't want to go back. Said that she didn't want to go back to where she was. She had said that he made her the happiest, despite the beginning. Just pleas, if that ever happened, don't take death so lightly." I looked at her, tears were pooling at the sides of her eyes. 

"Ok, just so we both know, I was not being completely serious with the kidnapping or being sold. I doubt that will ever happen. Plus we haven't had a missing person in like 20 years. Why would that change now?" It was true the last missing persons case that was on TV and led to a bunch of restrictions was over 25 years ago. I remember my mom telling me. It was a man that went missing. His body was found, and he was alive, but barely. He was someone my mom knew, and apparently the hospital didn't think he would survive a week much less a month. He is still alive, got a boyfriend, he was too shaken up. I've seen him a couple of times, his boyfriend doesn't leave him alone for very long cause of all the anxiety. Apparently when he went missing it was when he was walking alone. I don't doubt his pain from that, but it's been so long since something happened. I should really call and ask how he is. 

We stopped at my house, "Be careful and I'll see you on Saturday." Jane had plans until my birthday, and she had some family function tomorrow. 

"Yeah, I will. Be safe heading home. And I'll see you Saturday. Hopefully your family thing goes well tomorrow." I looked at her and she nodded, I took that as a sign and grabbed my stuff from the back seat and left. 

I walked inside, "Hello, I'm home." There was no one in the living room, I went upstairs to check Eli's room. He was there, "Hey Elias, where are Mom and Dad?"

He looked at me, took of his headphones, and rolled his eyes, "Yes, how may I assist?"

"Mom and Dad?" I'm half annoyed. 

"Oh, they went to see uncle Vincent. Apparently uncle Nick said that he was having a break down and that he was struggling. He asked Mom and Dad to help cause the whole house was amess. I wasn't told what happened, just that they were called and that uncle Vincent was freaking out." We both knew anytime that uncle Vincent was freaking out, that it was bad. They tried to get a dog that could be trained for therapy, but uncle Vincent was afraid of them, me and Elias don't know why. "They'll probably spend the night, and maybe the weekend. I'm supposed to hang out with James on Friday, and will probably spend the weekend over there. I don't know if Mom and Dad will be back on Friday, but I was supposed to hang out with him during your party. By the way what's the dress look like?"

I nodded at him and pulled the dress out of the bag, "Looks nice right? The one Jane got was way more flashy than this, it was pretty though."

"Looks really nice, maybe you'll get a guy to hit on you. If he is hot, have him join the group, if not tell him to go away. And if you need a ride, there is always me and James. He got his license a couple of months ago." I hadn't heard anything from Jane, she said he was studying a while ago, I'm glad that paid off. 

"Ok, I'm gonna head off to bed, I ate with Jane, if your hungry then there's probably stuff down there." I head out of the room to my own. 

"Ok, goodnight Lilie, I'll see you in the morning. Love ya sis." Elias calls, he's always been like that.

"Love ya bro, night." I on the other hand am too tired. I walk into my room and turn on the lights. I look on the calendar beside my door and mark of December 18th. The white walls of my room, and the things hanging off it make me feel sage in my domain. I put the dress in my small walk in closet, and my shoes remain in the bag and are placed below it. I turn off the light and sit on my navy blue comforter that looks black in the dark. I change into my pajamas that hide under my pillow during the day. Throw my clothes in my dirty clothes pile, and climb under the warm sheets of my bed. I put my phone on the charger on my bedside table, making sure to text my mom goodnight before putting it down. The day comes to a peaceful end as I drift into sleep.