"Hey Kai. You know that you don't have to tell me anything if you really don't want to, but -yeah there is the but- it will help you if you talk about it. Believe me it really helps. And you know me I might be loud very often but there is no way I would ever pick a side that isn't yours if I don't believe that I have to."

Yasmin has really a fascinating personality. One minute she was all crunching crisps bashing the bad written character from a movie and cheering on the villain in action scenes and then she was talking all heartfelt and serious the next minute. I know her long enough that I shouldn't be surprised about it anymore.  Though it is exactly the same as her screaming it is just not something you could get used to.

So I answered after a short break: "I know."

Sighing I finally stop to avoid this topic and add: “I know but I just don't want to think about it. I don't even understand my reasons.  I guess... I am just scared."

"Aww. You don't need to be scared, baby!" She said hugging me but still in a teasing tone.

"Shut up!" I say embarrassed but don't shove her away.

"But now you have to tell me Kai! What exactly is going on?" She takes my face in both her hands, look me in both eyes and tells me: "You know you can trust me."

I shivered. When became this moment so intense. All my senses became stronger and I felt at ease.

Safe like a kid in the arms of their mother.

Yeah that was right Yasmin was like a mother to me at some moments. What a fitting nickname she gave me there with: Baby. Sometimes I wish I could be more like her.

More Open minded. More Confident. More liked.

Yasmin deserved it all. Thats why I am not. Because I didn't deserve it. Shush! Thats not true Kai! I shouldn't think that way. That only brings me down. I am strong. Strong enough to fight myself.

So I spitted it out. I told her everything straight from the beginning. And she listened attentive. She didn't asked a single question, I am not even sure If she made any noise at all until I finished.

But when I was finished all she did was stand up and left me sitting alone. I was confused. What was she up to now?

"Did you had to go to the toilette and waited until I finished all the time?" I asked her half joking half serious when she walked back into the room. She didn't answer instead she shoved a pot of white fluffy tooth devils in my lap. -That's right I was talking about popcorn- 


"Here" She munched shoving another hand full of the same popcorn in her mouth."

"What- Were did you even get them from?" I stuttered due to my confusion.

"From my bag of course, dummy!" She said rolling her eyes as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

"So you brought Popcorn to." I shake my head in disbelieve. "Seriously?" I added repeating the same thing I said a few hours ago. 


"Wh-f-at?" She repeated too, chewing her popcorn. 


"Kai. Seriously this was so damn exhausting, I think I've never been quiet for that long in my life. I need sugar now to build up my braincells again. 


Chuckling I gave in: "That's not how it works Yasmin." and added more serious and a little bit anxious short after: "So what do you think?"