POV: Kai

„HOW WAS IT?“ A loud voice screamed at me as soon as I picked up my phone. Out of Habit I was already holding my phone so far away from my ear as I could. Still Yasmins screams were nothing you could get used too, so I still flinched.

„Stop screaming“ I mumbled sleepy. It was already 12am but it was Saturday so who cares. I reached for a bottle of water next to my bed and drank something. I had just woken up and needed time to focus on the boring world full of impossibilities. I didn’t have a hang over but even so I was definitely nothing of a morning person. Slowly Yasmins babbling came back to my senses and I heard her say: „Kaiiii… Just tell me already, How was the Party?“

Party? Oh yeah party. That wasn’t a dream after all. „Good.“ I answered.

„Don’t let me down! Come on boy give me the deets. I want all the tea.“ Yasmin urged me.

„Well, it was a party nothing special. Nothing you would want to know.“ I lied. I didn’t want Yasmin to know the truth. I didn’t want her to know that we run away from the party, that we talked and that we kissed, I swallowed hard, especially that I don’t wanted her to know. Because I know what she would say. I know she would love it and she would want a photo even more now. And then I had to tell her that I run away, and that I said no. That I said no to his offer because I was scared. Scared of being with him. Of falling in Love with him even more. I would have to explain it to her. And I know she wouldn’t understand. Nobody would. Because there is nobody like me in this world.

Before Yasmin could unmask my lie I added another: „He has a girlfriend.“ What I know would shut her up. At least for as long as it was able to shut someone so chatty like Yasmin up. Suddenly panic overwhelmed me that this „lie“ maybe wasn’t even a lie. He never said anything about it and there were still this girl who talked to him in German or whatever Language that was. But He kissed you back. A voice whispered in my head against the storm of unpleasant thoughts. Thats right he kissed me back. He wouldn’t kiss a random stranger if he had a Girl- or Boyfriend. Why do you even care about that? A louder voice in my head hit me with realization. You are not his boyfriend. You are not even anyone to him. Just some stranger he kissed. Nothing more. Thats right. Now it was to late for regrets. I already decided.

„I am sorry.“ Yasmin said. With such a oppression in her voice that I felt bad for lying to her. „So… Are you free on Monday Evening? Lets make a movie night!“ She asked after a short break.

„Sounds great!“ I replied shallowing down my guilt. My Decision affected me more than I thought it would. Therefor it was good to have a distraction. Good thing Yasmin was in Town on Monday. Her support and care have helped me a lot of times when I were feeling down. I really should give her a big present for her birthday. Her Birthday! Thats right, her birthday were next week!

While we were chatting over random stuff my mind gone crazy about what I should give her as present. She liked Animes, Mangas, goth stuff, stupid stuff and almost everything that wasn’t grey. Don’t ask me why but she hates grey. She always says Grey is the most boring color in the world and everything that was grey should be banned from the world. We always joked that she said that to a person who bitterly can’t see any other color that grey. Besides Black and White but as we all know they aren’t colors, They’re Shades. What would Yasmin use to argue that I can’t see grey either because everything I actually see are shades, contrasts and shadows. What would mean I only see black and white. But then again I never seen grey or any other colors so I don’t know what I see exactly. It is one of this scientistic questions who turn into Questioning-your-whole-life-questions. But what was I thinking about again? Ahh right! Her present. I should think about it some more. It should be a present that shows how much I appreciate her. But it can’t be expensive.

What gives me the perfect Idea. Something self made!