I wanted to ask why he thought I was interesting but I let it slide because I didn’t want to ruin the moment.
Al looked me in the eyes and for a moment we just stayed that way. In the silence the sound of the birds and grills chirping became stronger. The wind swished trough the leafs and the trees were groaning. It smelled like summer. The grass was tickling my ankles but Everything I saw were the sparkling eyes in front of me. I really want to know what color his eyes are. It would be amazing to see colors, just for this short moment. This thought got stuck in my head for a while. Until I didn’t know how long we were standing here just looking at each other in silence. I finally turned my eyes away from his fascinating pupils and looked at the view. The sun stood low in the sky and the sky itself was darker than usual. It was Sunset.
I gently cleared my throat and broke the silence as I said softly:
„Did you know that butterflies can die if you touch there wings?“
I don’t know why I said that it was something what preoccupied me my whole life, but I never told anyone about. Not even Yasmin. Butterflies were always a symbolism for freedom in my mind, it was fascinating and sad. That something so small like a touch could destroy a butterfly. „No matter how much freedom you have it can all be destroyed from one touch. One little gesture can take everything away you have.“ I completed my thoughts in spoken words.
„It is indeed fascinating, how fleeting the world is.“ Al said his eyes still fixated at me. „Do you think there is freedom at this planet?“
His question made me feel depressed. Freedom. Pure Freedom that was my goal, my dream and my destiny. It always had been, but what if I could never reach it. No, I don’t know that yet. I shouldn’t think that way. „If there is no freedom on earth than I search in the space for it.“ I voiced my final thought.
And Al smiled at me with a bit proudness? I think He was proud, even though I don’t know why. I just smiled back.
Al laid down into the grass and grabbed my hand again to pull me down. „Come lay down.“ He said gently.
I laid down next to him, and looked into the sunset. Then he began to speak.
„I am sure there is freedom in this world. I think the key to being free is to realize what it means to be restricted. You can always and everywhere be free you just have to clear your mind from limitation. Freedom is not outside you, it is inside you. No one else can achieve freedom for you, only you can do that. Being free doesn’t mean you have to fly. If this Butterfly was truly free then dead can not stop him from being free. Look“
He raised his arms up to the sky and formed a triangle with his hands
„This is what we see everyday. Just everything what is in this triangle. And we always search for a way out of this triangle but we find no way out. Yet we are the ones who made the triangle we don’t have to search for a way out, because we just have to take a look and see the whole sky. We are to fixated on the little things that we always miss the big picture. If you search for freedom. You already are free you just need to realize that and all your limits are gone.“
I looked from the triangle to Al. He looked in the sky with a spark in his Eye.
I think right that moment I fell in Love.
I fell in Love with the words he said and with the things he did.
Al really was something diffrent he was able to let me throw all my logic overboard and just live in the now. Seriously I don't think he is good for me, was my last clear thought in this evening.
So in the heat of the moment, drunken from his words and the vibe I took his hands who still formed a triangle, laid them into the grass together with mine, leaned over and kissed him.
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