A warm sensation caressed my skin making me feel relaxed. I could hear voices, but I refused to open my eyes and that serene moment to vanish in a thick air. A slight throb in my head made all this moment to be disturbed.

I yawn silently sneaking a quick look out from under the sheet which covered my whole body and my face as well on the place I was once again - the infirmary, while slowly remembering I heard Anthony voice just a few minutes ago. A tiny smile appeared shyly on my face, feeling a tingling in my stomach.

“Open your eyes Chris I know you’re awake.”

Sky told me, while the bed dip under his weight and he sighted. I slowly opened my eyes and the sunlight hit me hard, making me blind and see spots.

“Why is it so sunny all of a sudden?” I asked, hiding under the sheet and whining killing any moment of tranquility, feeling all inside unsettling.

“Because you were out for nearly two hours.” James got involved in the short conversation, which barely started and had no mood to be up or to talk. I Only wanted to laze around and sleep.

“What?” puzzled I shrilled. “Don’t tell me I slept so much?”

They both shook their head staring at me. I could see easily that Sky was furious on something, that I probably did perhaps, but all I know I was a good boy and stayed in bed.

“Don’t you remember anything?” Sky asked and I glanced at him surprised then hit me. I shrunk and tried to hide under the sheet. I did remember walking away from the room breaking the promise that I’ll stay put, looking for someone…

“Did… I…” I tried to say something but all came like a shutter not knowing what to say. “Are you mad at me?” I asked putting on the display the best eye puppies I could have to melt his heart.

Sky rolled his eyes and stood up. “The pills I gave kick in and you nearly passed out in the courtyard and… someone bring you back.” He trailed off having a slight confused look into his eyes. “I’m not mad one you Chris, I’m mad …”

He stopped and stared at me, like he read my mind.

Anthony must have been. I nod in delight, while feeling my cheeks heating up. I closed my eyes remembering vaguely what happened, but I couldn't see his face, his eyes, he was just a black shape.

“I think you should go home and rest,” Sky continued and I pouted. I hated people telling me what to do. I still had a bit of time until lunch and today they were serving dessert. I did not want to miss the opportunity to be the single kid from the all school, which didn’t taste it.

“No,” I said flatly and wrapped my arms at the chest.

“Fine…” Sky raised his hand telling me he surrendered. “But if you feel sick or anything unusual come to my office fast,” he told me while I shrugged. I felt peachy…

Sky waved to us fast and vanished through the door.

Anthony was worried about me, he came to see me, and I knew he still cared about me. I hum while stretching my arms and giggling toward James, which was holding my bag on his shoulder.

His voice tone became serious and his body tensed after Sky left the room. His voice, his expression was different than usual, but Iwashed all away. He would never hurt me, no? We were close friends.

“You scared a few kids today at the gym.”

He said, while I reached toward my things and looked for the shades. I nod to his words and let out a pitched sound. Found them.

“I was too awesome for the gym and needed a sudden nap,” I said, while putting my shades on, looking again like a badass.

“Why do you need shades now?” James asked, while he raised an eyebrow tiredly, then shrugged mumbling something then pat my shoulder.

After that he helped me to stand up from the comfortable bed, while I let out a whimper, as losing the comfort of the bed.

“I will blend with style and make myself invisible,” I said, while starting to walk toward the exit saying in my mind my goodbye to this room. With a bit of luck I’ll be once again in it barely after a few days.

“Yup, those shades sure don’t attract anyone's attention.” James continued, while pushing me out, rushing toward the next class – literature and looking a bit around the halls.

Sweet will be an all hour for my beauty sleep. This skin isn’t smooth for nothing.

I went ahead, while James closed the nurse office door, but suddenly I was pulled in the bathroom next to it, forcefully.

“Hey!”

It was the single thing I could say before my face was cupped between two strong hands and my mouth it was sealed with a deep kiss, but tender.

“I missed this Kitty.”

It was the only thing I heard before my heart melted and all my body became jelly. Anthony deep jet black eyes pierced me, while my heart rhythmic became chaotic.

“I… missed you as well,” shuttering and heavy breathing I replied back, feeling inside a warm feeling and ecstatic.

He pecked my lips softly, but the next thing I know I’m pushed abruptly from his arms into the floor, unable to process anything, making me yelp in pain and feeling utterly confused.

“I’m so sorry…” He said, while I could see a grin on his face blossoming.

Staring at him an image flashed and in that moment I knew, he wasn’t who hold me when I felt taken by darkness, it was Rick. I let out a gasp.

“You’re still so easy, Sebastian.”

He said playing with his car keys and taking out his phone, messaging something, while letting out a puff in enchantment.

I look at him unable to process what was happening until the door slammed and J.D. appeared. At that moment I shuttered, while both boys cold black eyes and filled with venom were directed toward me.

“Hello there freak…” J.D. told me, while clenching his hands into fits and I frozed. I knew what was coming, but usually Anthony was always there to pick my broken body from a corner of this school, now it was there, on the other side.

In a flash, I felt powerless. Anthony pat JD back and got out letting me alone with the devil himself, a kid which hated me, without never doing him anything, beside an innocent tease.

“Hit me,” I heard my voice before processing what I said. At that moment I stood up and pushed myself into him, both falling in a small pool from the dirty floor. I yelled, but my mouth was sealed by his hand, while tackling me under him.

“James…” He shouted and the door opened wide. My eyes set on him, while struggling to escape his deadly grip, which now was making me feel sick to my stomach.

It was like a familiar feeling long forgotten.

I stared in awe at James pleading silently to yell for help, but he just stood there, glancing at me, while Anthony entered back in the bathroom, smirking and crossing his arm across James’ shoulder.

At that moment I felt my heart breaking in tiny pieces. What was happening here? He was my best friend, a brother to me. A lumped formed in my troth and for a long time, tears lipped down my face.

It was sorrowful tears because at that moment I realized one thing. I never had friends, I never was loved. I closed my eyes and before them the boy with green eyes appeared again before me, shattered.

It was the first time I was afraid of them. Usually there was a slap, a push or a punch in my gut and then words which I was blocking them with a simple smile, but now something more sinister blossom on the back of my mind, images I couldn't stop.

“Why?” It was the only thing that came out when I opened my eyes and landed on James, which was nervously playing with the hem of his t-shirt.

“Because… I got tired of your swing moods.”

Flatly he said after a slight hesitation. He stared deep in my eyes and I could not read him anymore. It was like my best friend, vanished in a second.

My body trembled and I felt nausea.

“You have been with me since…”

“Hm…” I was abruptly cut by Anthony while he cleared his throat.

“I know everything. I can’t believe I have been friends with you.” He said, while my jaw trembled and couldn't hold my sobs quiet anymore.

“Ya, heard you’re pretty demented,” JD continued unaware of what they talk.

“Don’t know about you all talk,” I shouted scared and confused, while my head pulsated heavily and felt something warm above my lip.

“Damn fucker, he nosebleed on my shirt!”

JD cussed, while letting me, enough time to curl in a small ball in a corner, and shaky wiping my blood, possibly letting a trail of the red liquid shared on my face.

“Of course you don’t know, because you forget you psycho.”

I heard James voice and my head snaps into his direction, while violently I shook my head, not wanting to hear anything.

“Lies!” I shouted. I looked at Anthony and in my mind was only our tender moments when he was telling me I was his kitten. “You… I love you so much!”

I finally said it out loud to hear; maybe like these all will stop, but was one of my greatest mistakes.

Pain hit my face, while my head hit the wall. I heard a gasp, while my mind went in haze.

“I beg you don’t hit me, I’m a good boy, daddy, I promise.”

A shaky and terrified voice echoed in my head and I shook my head, feeling dizzy, glancing chaotic through the filthy bathroom.

Then my body started to shake, yelping in pain, while my whole body it is covered suddenly in vividly sting, on my back and legs.

“Don’t…”

I shouted, while pulling my hair, trying to protect my body from his hits. The belt hits my skin, breaking it, rapidly until my body went numb and my arms limply, falling near my body.

Then I started laughing, while tears were falling between rivers of blood. I could only hear a door slamming and fast footsteps.

My whole body hurts, while I felt my skin burning.

“Shit.”

I heard, but I stared blankly ahead. I was a very bad boy who didn't deserve to live.

I felt a soft slap over my face bringing me back to my senses. I pushed myself even further in the corner when before me the same blue eyes, stares deeply in mine.

Hesitantly, he wrapped his arms around my body and pressed his lips on my forehead, whispering something.

“Help, someone?” He shouted, while he took my limp body into his arms. I could see emotions swirling into his eyes.

“Why…?” I mumbled trying to erase that memory from my head. I still could see his hateful gaze yet faceless, everything was in dimness. I feel my lips dry and try to lick them but feel the drain of any kind of power.

I felt his heart slamming in his chest, while he entered in the same damned room I just left, placing me on the bed. The door slammed open and Sky entered, having a terrified look into his eyes.

“What happened?” He asked, while I see Mickael coming behind him as well, gasping and turning around.

“I’ll kill that bitch!” He shouted.

“I’m fine…” I tried to ensure them, only wanting now to fall asleep and never open my eyes. My mind flowed with my mother's words from the last time I saw her, before abandoning me on a hospital bed, like a garbage I was. “Make all this pain stop.” I yelled, while he wrapped his arms around me and I sank my head in the crock of his neck, crying my heart out, while gripping his shirt.

“I promise baby boy, the pain will be gone.” He whispered before pulling me in his lap and rocked my body back and forth.

I just stood there staring feeling my heart aching.

Why James betrayed me as well, he was always near me…

At that moment I knew what I had to do. I slipped to Rick about Anthony and his hoe of his girlfriend. I felt satisfied. He stormed out the moment I told him, Anthony will pay for shattering my heart … A weak smirk appeared on my lips, as new emotions were growing inside me.

I loved them all with all my heart, even though they let me behind. I had to vanish before their gaze, while my heart was ripped apart like a photo and scattered. Once I get home, I'll relieve all of my presence...

A sad smile appeared on my face, knowing that my uncles will cry a bit at first, but then they will forget about me and all will move further. They didn’t need this burden on their shoulders.

A memory passed my mind. It was from two years ago. A joke Anthony and James made to me. They laughed, while embarrassed I could only shrug, like nothing happened, while almost all saw my scars, beside them, at that time.

No longer after that, I heard my name through the speakers alongside my former friends and bullies…