The smell was alluring and blissful making me drown in the sweetness of the glass, which was exposing me to a palette of colors, that before my gaze were blossoming like a garden of flowers.

I gripped my hands, while all my senses tingled like someone was about to kiss me.

My mouth soon would be filled with an ecstatic feeling.

“I beg you faster Sebby!” I heard James whining near me, but I completely ignored him, while my entire gaze fell on my new victim. It was a chocolate cake.

“To expensive,” I mumbled all disappointed and stared at James with my super adorable puppy eyes. He shook his head showing me his fingers. “Peace?” I asked, while he raised an eyebrow, while sipping from his coffee plastic glass.

“Where do you see the peace sign?” He asked, I shrugged and made the same sign.

“Means two… That I bought two cakes and yes before asking and whining around, one it is yours.” He said while I started to clamp my hands, joyful. I reached toward the cake, but James turned around so fast that I nearly lost my balance. “At school I’ll give it.”

I pouted and looked at the money from my hand and in the end I bought a banana and sore cherries smoothie which I shared with James. More said the sneaky bastard stole it from my hand.

“Feed me!” I said, while bouncing in the front seat when James parked his new car in the school parking lot. James rolled his eyes and gave my cake to eat it by myself. I pouted.

My eyes fell on Sky who was kissing a guy while getting down from the car.

“Busted…” I yelled and he turned, getting all flushed out.

“Shut up, Sebby!” James yelled in my ear, making me jump a bit while he laughed, eating his piece of cake.

“Why did you do that?” I asked him, while staring at him and putting the shades on, making me look bad ass while getting down from the car, feeling my tummy full. James doesn’t reply, but his face suddenly changes, appearing on it some kind of grimace like he was constipated.

“James, my boy you really need to poop more,” I tell him and turn to walk toward the school entry, licking my fingers from chocolate.

You know that moment in movies where all the cool guys walk in slow motion, I felt like that, not paying attention where I step. It was a freaking hole which made me bash my face from the pavement, all of a sudden.

Attention I got while my striking good look was suddenly whacked in shame by a hole and a loose lace. My shades fell down and hit someone's legs and my hands gently grabbed one of his legs, trying to pull myself up. Sexy ones I must say define muscles.

“What the fuck!” I heard a smooth and deep voice and looked up, smiling.

“Hey Rick…” I tell him winking and blowing him a kiss. Like usual a soft blush appears on his cheeks. “I knew you loved me.” I continued teasing him and forcing the note.”Pull me up with those strong arms of yours; I know you want to touch this sexy midget body.”

My knees were hurting me and I think by now they were already bleeding from the fall but I didn’t care. Pain submerged my throbbing heart, when behind Rick, the one I love appeared. I raised my arms out to Rick and waited for him to make a move.

I felt pain in my right hand and a gasp but as well laughing. I bit my check and smiled like nothing happened. My eyes were on him, on Anthony, nothing else mattered anymore.

“You said that you’ll come over,” I blurted out making him tense. “I waited for you.”

Load I continued, trying to read his reaction, but his eyes were unreadable, just a smirk in the corner of his lip appeared.

“I think you mistake me with other guy, fag.” He said while my heart ached. I opened my mouth to say something, but my words didn’t come out, beside the pain from my arm which made me yelp. JD was stepping hard on my arm now.

“Easy, I know I’m wanted by all, but can’t handle three at once,” I tell staring in his dead jet black eyes, while he frowns in annoyance and I wiggle my eyebrows.

“Fuck off, freak…” He lashed at me.

He raised his leg ready to kick me in my face but my eyes remained on Anthony, waiting for him to stop him. A lot of things you can notice while your pride was on the ground literally.

His check was slightly red with a soft bruise forming, and his lip was split slightly while he licked it nervously

“It is enough, JD.” I heard James pleading him.

“Boys, I’m hungry to kick someone's ass today.” JD shouted, while laughing at the same time as Rick and Anthony agreed. All bystanders just watch, without jumping in to help me but I wish to be hit…

I craved the pain that will fill a hole I had in my heart.

“What is this commotion here?”

I heard JD cursing under his breath and starts to run alongside the others to boys and ahead of me appeared a pissed off gym teacher. I smiled toward him while James helped me pull myself up.

“Nothing much Mr. Muller is just the usual routine.”

James intervened, smiling toward him. His green eyes were on me and I shivered feeling like I forgot something important. For the first time he sighed and patted my shoulder, a thing which never did. Usually there was a grumpy stare at me.

“Mr. Schieff, hope this time you won’t skip the first class to laze around.”

He said and walked away fast toward the entry. I stared at his back and the place where he touched me burned.

“Stop playing with that bracelet, someday you’ll break it.”

Hearing James made me stop. I know he gave this to me. It was a token that I survived that day but I couldn't remember what happened and his face…

I shuddered, while my head throbbed slightly, feeling a slight nausea.

“Are you okay, Sebby?”

“I’m good.” I heard my voice, but it was deep and low and I trembled. James looked worried but he smiled and nodded, pulling me toward the entry, while he started to type a message on his phone.

Suddenly I felt uneasy and alarmed, but my heart ached today since I woke up yesterday morning. I felt a pressure in my chest.

With the corner of my eye could see him. Hidden for all the views Anthony kissed that blond bimbo which was with Rick, she was a two time backstabbing bitch. He could not be with her, he loved me, I loved him, and Anthony would not leave me alone, not after he said he would come.

Why didn't he come over?

I felt cold shivers through my spine. “Forget.” I hear echoing in my mind.

“Christopher is a good boy,” I heard myself mumble feeling like I’ll rip that bitch apart with my both hands, a rage that never felt before.

“Sebastian!” I heard a smooth voice and glance at him, unaware I reached the gym class. James was staring at me startled, while Mickael, my gym teacher was in front of me, having a sympathy look into his eyes and a frown.

I title my head. “How Uncle Theo is?” I asked suddenly.

“He is fine.” Mickael replied, while James dialed someone number, Sky's I bet. “Are you okay, Chris, your nose is bleeding.” He said, while the other students gasped and stared.

“I have never been better…” While saying this I turned and stared at Anthony. “I waited for you, love…” then turned back to Mickael and felt my knees weakening.

His green eyes penetrated me, making me tremor while they become vividly, like a flame, as painful images flowed in my mind, and a shout erupted from my throat and a dark veil fell upon my eyes. What was wrong with me?

Then pain, like my bones and flesh were ripped apart and I heard his words through the haze.

"From the ashes of our past we will rise once again."

Then my mind became empty, while a sob echoed. It was my voice, cursing the day I was born.

Sadly, the senzation continued, as my throat burned. I could only feel a stinging and sharp pain through all my body, while I couldn’t move or scream. My eyes were heavy and my head throbbed.

Faintly, I tried to grip the rough material on what my body way lay on, unable to hold much from it. I was terrified. Through the painful haze I tried to breath, but my chest hurt.

I let out a gasp when I felt the bed sink and her touch open my face, touching gently like she used when I was small and I was smothered with affection, when I was pure.

The load beep ring in my ear, wishing to cover her excruciating remarks toward me. I wanted my brothers near me. I couldn't cry or scream. My body was numb, my mouth felt sealed.

She gripped me from my arm and shouted bitterly.

“I do not need a sinner in my house. I do not have a son anymore. He died two days ago.”

She was loathing me, my own mother. At that moment I prayed that I would be taken away, unable to tell her that I was sorry.

I could only hear her footsteps leaving the room in a rush and let out a huff and finally I could cry, weakling, while all my body was taken by wave of pain. At that moment I knew I was abandoned in a hospital, while I was fighting for my life.

I shouldn’t have been saved.

Suddenly I felt something warm on my forehead. A kiss of pity perhaps and that moment I heard the voice of the man which saved me. He placed something in my hand and I gripped it, like my life will depend on that object and his voice and slumber in my deep sleep, forgetting slowly my past.

I remember trying to shout and only two words slipped my damaged body, weak and hoarse. “Don’t go…”

The pain still lingered in my body, in each of my scars but I could move now. I fluttered my eyes open looking disoriented around guided by someone's voice, shouting my name.

It was the same room I was in a few days ago. My eyes landed on the window where outside the sky looked hazardless. My eyes fix on the dark clouds ignoring anything else. My memories tried to flow in my mind, but I blocked each of them, while I felt my jaw trembling and a lump formed in my throat, feeling ashamed all of a sudden.

“Christopher!” I heard my name and I snapped my head in the voice direction and I felt at ease. Sky and James, both looked at me with a frown on their faces, while I weakly wave and smile.

“Welcome back silly.” I heard James and I nodded without saying anything.

“Don’t call him, Sky I beg,” I mumbled looking into his hazel eyes while he ruffled my hair and nodded. James stared at me, trying to tell me something then hit me. We’re at school. “Go, I’ll be fine.” I ensured him, knowing we had math or was about to have. He leaned on and hugged me, unable to move my hands to do the same.

I slipped a wide smile letting him know I was fine, while all my body was wrapped in a sheet making me feel like I was trapped in a cocoon. I struggle to get myself released but all my effort seemed to be futile.

I glance through the room and the single person I needed now was not around.

“I’ll give you some pills for the pain, if you have a headache.” Sky suddenly said, pulling me from my thoughts and I nodded. My head was throbbing heavily. I open my mouth and swallow the pills with a few sips of water, with Sky help.

“I dreamed something,” I suddenly said and he glanced at me, but not replying waiting for me to continue, unsure if it was a dream or a long forgotten memory. All I know is that the pain from my dream seemed alive and even now I feel it…

I couldn't fake to be happy, not in Sky face; he read me all the time.

“Did I ever been raped?” I blurted suddenly, making Sky title his head on a side while his eyes never left mine and smiled gently. I felt like I asked this question at a good moment, as my dreams seemed distant and foggy.

He said something, but his voice doesn’t reach me anymore, while my eyelids become heavy.

“Then why did I…” I mumbled unable to articulate any words, feeling the pills he gave effects through my system.

I closed my eyes and felt in a short doze before I heard the door slamming and someone yelling to someone.

“Fuck you!” I heard his voice and my heart started to accelerate. He came to see me, but I couldn't move. I needed him, his body, and his words. The door slammed again then all became peaceful.

I opened my eyes and noticed I was alone.

The sheets I was covered felt heavy upon me, but after a short struggle I managed to escape its deadly grip and stumbling I started to walk toward the door.

Everything spun around me but I needed to find Anthony. I couldn't hold those feelings inside me anymore. He came to see me…

The hall was empty and there was no sign of Sky. Holding the wall with my hand I started to walk, while I felt dizzy and nauseated.

“Anthony?” I yelled, but not a single reply. “I need you…” I manage to say before falling down, on the cold floor, while my body was bathed in a cold sweat and suddenly I feel colder than I ever been, feeling waves of shivers through it.

Before my eyes black spots appear and my stomach clenches in pain. I lean over and I throw up, feeling the bitter taste in my mouth.

I need to find him.

With that thought in mind I stood up, holding my stomach with my left arm and with the other, trying to hold myself from the wall and walk toward the exit. He might be there, at our place.

The cold breeze gusts in my face, caressing my wet clothes from my heavy sweating, which ripples through my body with each step.

I shout Anthony names unable to move forward. I felt my powers letting me and my head fall back, taking my body with it. Around me I felt two strong arms, holding me tight to his chest while my back lean on him.

“I got you, Sebastian.”

I raise my head and turn a bit before passing out in his arms. All I could see was clear icy blue eyes; then again I was tormented by my darker fears, while I walked naked through the bleakness of my past.

I was feeling like my life was in a complete shambles.