Faridah kept talking to herself while her tears kept rolling down on her cheeks , " Although I have convinced myself that I forgot all that pain along time ago, but seeing him die in my arms in the same way of my mother's death in my arms & I couldn't do anything to save him as I couldn't do anything to save her back then, Revived that painful memory inside me unconsciously & made me remember how helpless I was at that time. "
" No one have idea How much pain I'm holding inside me because of seeing that scene again after so long time. "
" So, unconsciously my mind & my heart as well didn't want to expriance such pain again, That pain which has been hunting me for so long time in the past, This which made me rushed to save him unconsciously. "
" Now I realized that sometimes we do things without being conscious of it to avoid experiencing something which we suffered alot before because of it & only now I figured out that was the real reason which made me save him. "
" Plus in that dream he was so dear to my heart, Although I'm all believe that all this feelings which I have for him in that dream are a delusion, a hallucination & are Faked. "
" But I don't know why until now I feel that all that feelings are still so alive inside me & I couldn't get rid of them( that feelings which she have for him in her dream)until now, it's so tiredness. "
" So, When our eyes met, That made me recall his eyes when he died in the dream & that pained my heart ruthlessly, I don't know what is wrong with me? My tears which haven't gotten out for so many years since I buried my mother after her death, Now in a blink of an eye got out for him, but How can I tell him that? I won't ever be able to tell him such things. "
In the other side, Chris got shocked by seeing her tears as he talked to himself, " Throughout my life, I see the tears of women around me every day at the field of acting & in my daily life & none of them has ever effected me before, So I thought that I used to see the tears of women around me all the time & no longer they able to(The women's tears)effect me. "
" But I don't know why when I saw the treas on her eyes, For the first time throughout my life, I feel that she is the first woman who could rip into my soul & pain my heart as well without mercy with her teary eyes. "
All of sudden, Chris came in close to her from the back, Held her shoulder by both of his hands, Forced her to turn & face him, Held her chin by his fingers & lifted it(her chin)up, Then he Looked into her eyes deeply as he said sadly, " Did I do anything wrong to you? Tell me, I don't meant to make you cry that way, You drove me crazy, You are so strong woman, What is that thing on the earth which could make a stronger woman like you tear that way? "
" Tell me Faridah, You're a big mystery to me, The more days passed, The more curious I become about you. "
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