"Hello?"

I looked at the number that was under "Blake". I clean up my troth and started to talk casually like I knew the guy for years. "It's me Ivan, the new kid."

"Ivan?" He sounded confused. "Why are you calling from Theo's phone?" Before answering, the noise stopped. I knew then he went outside, somewhere where it was quiet. "Did something happen?" His voice changed and became more serious.

"No, I just found his phone on the bathroom floor after you all left today, to go looking for the kid today and I just barely remembered."

"Damn, I could swear Theo, he's an airhead sometime." He said relieved.

"If you want I could bring it to you tonight to give to him," I said.

"It's raining like hell outside plus he's home." Blake told me. I felt a bit annoyed hearing he wasn't there. I wanted to see him. "You can meet us tomorrow at the coffee shop near the school." After hearing this we talked a bit longer about directions and stuff and then we said goodbye.

"Theo managed to make friends? Him who was the friendliest freak that got all beat up in middle school?" I leaned by the door biting my thumb hard. How that freak got to have friends, back then if it wasn't for my brother...

A knock on my door shattered my thoughts. I jumped off the bed and opened the door. My father was standing with a small plate in his hand. On it was a piece of chocolate cake with a smell of mint radiating from it. It was one of my favorite cakes.

"Oh! You remembered," I said with an ironic tone.

"Ivan, stop this." He said entering inside my room. He sat on the chair and noticed the diary. He paled slightly. "Don't do something that you'll regret." He told me while he stood up walking toward the door to grab it from the floor. Me being closer, I was faster.

"Don't you dare touch it..." I yelled while I held it to my chest. "Stop staring at me like I'm crazy or something."

He looked into my eyes and caressed my face slowly. "Stop living in the past. You'll only hurt yourself more and us..."

"What?" I said shoving his hand off. "Got tired of having a crazy kid or got ashamed of fact that he was fucked up by another boy?" I snapped starting to yell at my father, making my mother come up to my room, concerned. My voice was now echoing through the house, only to be hidden by the thunder. I see the look in my brother's eyes. I feel a sting upon my face and then I shut up, biting my bottom lip.

"We won't have this discussion with your little brother near. He had enough these past years; we all have, so just let it all be and leave your life." He told me while I could sense his trembling voice. "It's been three years, Ivan, move on."

"How I could move on so easy?" I said surprised how much they changed.

"Honey!" My mom interrupted. "He is just tired, let him rest."

I looked at my mom and she looked alarmed. She was holding Nikolai near her making signs with her eyes to my father to not continue on. He left my room letting out a sigh. I gazed to my brother and his eyes toward me felt cold. I knew he didn't want me around, not since that day which all changed our lives.

I slam the door and fall to my knees. My body was trembling. I didn't know what I wanted anymore, to make him pay or to make him fall once again, in love with me. It was clear, he was afraid of me and I was happy. Tears were falling down from my eyes but I was laughing, I'm so fucked up.

I lay down on the floor curling in a ball, holding the diary close to my chest and in the other hand Theo's phone. After a time I fell to a slow, dreamless sleep.

***

"Ivan?" I hear Blake's voice calling me. He was sitting at a table alone looking through a menu. Behind him was Tyler, who was wearing a black with a silver print beanie and Eugene who was heading to the table. I waved and joined them taking out Theo's phone.

"Theo must have been really sick yesterday if he had forgotten to take his phone or didn't notice it was gone." Blake says while he puts it in his jacket pocket then changes his mind and places it on the table. "He treasures this phone." Hearing this I raise an eyebrow recalling that in it was nothing important.

"But where is the little dude?" Eugene says looking around the coffee shop. "My Becka." Eugene says changing the subject fast, waving to a girl who was coming straight to our table. He started jumping around her like he was a dog in heat.

"Don't mind him." Blake said amused. Suddenly he looked toward the door and smiled. I turn and there he was. I stared at him. He was looking worse than when I saw him yesterday. Blake's smile faded a bit and glancing at him I gripped my own hand under the table.

The kid had an odd look in his eyes which I found annoying. He stands up and walked towards him catching Theo who was slightly balancing.

"Have you drunk again?" I hear Tyler ask looking towards Theo. He let out a groan and started scrolling the menu uninterested by his reply.

"No." He said flatly. "I just tripped a bit." He looks at me and his smile starts to fade while mine starts to grow even bigger. He stood down while Blake put his hand upon his forehead.

"You still have a slight fever." He said. "You should have stayed home today."

"I didn't want to, plus has anyone seen my phone?" He asked.

"Not only is he stupid, now he is blind as well." Ty said making a sign with his hand toward the phone which was in front of Theo. His face lit up.

"Same clothes as yesterday?" Suddenly Blake says worried. A thing which made all of us notice.

"It's washing day. I forgot."

"And your mother washed everything you had?" I opened my mouth trying to make him look at me. From where I was standing I could see that under his long bangs his eyes were red. In fact he looked pathetic like he was begging for someone to comfort him. His eyes were shining, gazing at Blake.

"My... You all know she's a klutz." He said smiling putting his hand on his neck and looking down.

"We know?" Ty says raising an eyebrow. "Then we had forgotten."

Theo opened his mouth to say something but Eugene distracted their attention when he tripped and fell down knocking out a waitress. They all started to laugh heavy besides Theo who was looking at me and I could see he was shaking, pleading with his amber eyes to not say anything.

I can only see his eyes which after three years they still disturb me. All my body, at this point, craved to touch him and feel his lips upon mine. He stood up wiping his sweat from his face with his shaking hand and walked outside fast. I followed him until he stopped at the corner of the coffee shop.

He was kneeling down, holding his phone in his hand. When he saw me he tried to stand up and walk back but I gripped his arms stopping him. I pulled him towards me and without a single thought I hovered over his lips, feeling his soft lips which had a sweet taste with a fruity flavor.

He was stunned by my sudden action but then our lips started moldering together in synopsis. After some moments we parted but I want more of him. It was a passionate kiss even after three years it feels the same. I lean on my forehead against his and felt the radiating warmth of his skin.

"You're mine and only mine," I told him after I released him from my grip. "You better remember that and this time I'm not gonna let you go."

The moment I kissed him old feelings came to life. Are those feelings which I tried to bury deep down but maybe they were just hidden somewhere. His eyes, his lips, his skin, his smell, his small frame all became vivid in my mind once again as well as the image which haunted me for years.

Theo ran back towards the cafe without even glancing at me, seems like he'd also remembered those things. He won't be of anyone else's, same like, I won't be...

I let a small smirk seeing his condition, but my smirk became a cocky grin because he was confused, surprised, his complexion was flushed and he was a bit scared it all proved I still have my effect on little Theo. He returns back to the other guys, who will forget about him easily that too very soon! And I'm gonna make it sure.

Theo is still the same fragile easy to break and easy to get to. He is also scared and fucked up just like me. He was trying his best not to meet my stares. I smirked again with a thought " Theo babes it's just the beginning there's a lot more waiting for you. Two can play this game and I'm so going to make this game remarkable for you...that's a promise"

The game has began!